defy those chains...
Anyone else ever have those moments when no matter how much You love the Lord, you just suddenly... want to know Him more and more and it grieves you that no matter how far you go from here, it'll never be enough? I mean... it's a good thing I guess, to long for Him so desperately. It's just... I don't know. Maybe it's just my insecurities but I kind of feel like I'm running after something that I'll never be able to catch because something inside me is always holding me back, always tripping me up. Of course I'm not saying I'm going to stop running. One day He'll call me home, that I know. I am confident of that. I just get frustrated with myself I guess. That makes no sense. Oh well.
So tomorrow morning I'm going to be singing again at church. It feels weird that I haven't sung in so long. I'm a little worried that it will feel weird to be up there again -- and in a different place, too. I'm excited, though. I've missed that. It was what I needed, taking a step back -- but now I think I'm ready to step up again. I think God has taken me far enough in this journey that I can lead again... I guess this has just been a really rough, humbling experience, the things He is taking me through, and I didn't feel right being up there... which is probably only logical to me, but once again, oh well.
...In prisoners' chains
with bleeding stripes
Paul and Silas prayed that night
and in their pain began to sing
their chains were loosed
and they were free...
hallelujah...
So tomorrow morning I'm going to be singing again at church. It feels weird that I haven't sung in so long. I'm a little worried that it will feel weird to be up there again -- and in a different place, too. I'm excited, though. I've missed that. It was what I needed, taking a step back -- but now I think I'm ready to step up again. I think God has taken me far enough in this journey that I can lead again... I guess this has just been a really rough, humbling experience, the things He is taking me through, and I didn't feel right being up there... which is probably only logical to me, but once again, oh well.
...In prisoners' chains
with bleeding stripes
Paul and Silas prayed that night
and in their pain began to sing
their chains were loosed
and they were free...
hallelujah...