contemplative days
I was thinking about my life today...just in general, like past and present. If you were to ask me a couple months ago to tell you my ideal world and how I thought my life was going to turn out then it would be totally different than it is today. I guess thats life though. Its full of funny surprises and unexpected turns. Like they say...Every story as an ending, but in life, endings are just beginnings.
This summer was a big summer for me. I met a lot of amazing people who helped me overcome such a hard time in my life. I cant thank Jackie, Christina and Jessica enough for everything they have done for me and continue to do for me. On top of that, meeting Jeremy and becoming a lot closer to Andy helped me a ton. The summer started out rough and Jeremy helped me get through it because he was going through the same thing. He is the best person, other than Ricky, to talk to and give advice back. And Andy has this funny charm that always makes anyone smile no matter how shitty they feel. Jackie is my best friend in the whole world. I dont know what I would ever do without her. She is the sister I never had at heart. Christina haha well...if you knew her you would understand why I love her sooooo much. Shes awesome and just like me haha. I really think we have the same inside personality just a different body. And my dearest Jessa...We are the kind of friends that dont have to talk everyday but can stay best buds forever just cuz we understand each other in every way possible, and shes a Yankees fan so she kicks ass! Bobby dude...well you would have to know him to know why I am so happy to have met him. I learned a lot about myself. I learned that no guy can ever have complete control of you and no matter how much you might love someone, never believe that they are all you have cuz when they are gone you realize how stupid you were to think that. Im not saying I regret anything...I have no regrets and theres nothing I would change. At the time I could have thought of 574938475 things I would have changed but they were all things I would change about me. Thats not what I relationship is. Its not about one person, its a two way street and thats where my problem was. But thats over with. And then theres Kyle...man where do I start with him. Meeting him was kind of a fate type thing. Its amazing how much we have in common. Ive never met someone who could make me laugh the way he could, even without saying anything. We had some awesome times this summer and Im glad that while hes at school nothing has changed, other than a few things ;-) But thats ok. I was scared when he went away but its all good. I cant thank him enough for all he did while I was sick and in the hospital cuz really without his help I dont think I would have had the courage I needed.
Now on to my favorite PSUers...whether they are still there or not. We def. had our rough times but what in life doesnt? We have all grown up and in turn I feel have grown together again and Im soooo thankful for that. Everyone I met there has influenced my life in one way or the other. You are all great people.
Ricky is my older brother, genetics dont mean anyhting. He is an AMAZING listener and is always there for everyone no matter what. I hope you know that whenever you need it, Im always here for you bro.
Jamie, my roomie (other than Mary haha)...We had some great times. Haha our late night face washings and our talks before bed and our bed time music with buggy the radio. Not to mention Asshole Ryan and all our pranks on him lol. I cant thank you enough for sticking by me and for your kind heart you have all the time.
Mary aka MT...You are one of a kind I tell ya lol. You can make anyone laugh whether you mean to or not lol. Ill never forget our English class and all the good times in 309 with you and Jamie. Your a great person and Im glad you found happiness cuz you def. deserve it. Im glad we talk again and I want you to know I am here for you.
Merrill aka Merr...Wow umm soo many memories, both good and bad. But above all you are a great friend. Im glad you came down this summer, it was really nice seeing you. Im thankful that we can be friends and hold no grudges. You are a good person and should always remember that, no matter what life hands you you are strong enough to overcome it.
And Christina...well read above for my comments on her haha. Spring is gonna kick ass. Me + You + Kyle's hockey stick = unstoppable haha I love you girl. Always remember Miss Alaska and the Pineapple Juice lol.
These people are the people who have shaped me to become the person I want to be. I used to think of myself as "someones" girlfriend...but I was wrong. I am my own person and all of you have taught me about that in one way or another. Thanks guys I love you all.
This summer was a big summer for me. I met a lot of amazing people who helped me overcome such a hard time in my life. I cant thank Jackie, Christina and Jessica enough for everything they have done for me and continue to do for me. On top of that, meeting Jeremy and becoming a lot closer to Andy helped me a ton. The summer started out rough and Jeremy helped me get through it because he was going through the same thing. He is the best person, other than Ricky, to talk to and give advice back. And Andy has this funny charm that always makes anyone smile no matter how shitty they feel. Jackie is my best friend in the whole world. I dont know what I would ever do without her. She is the sister I never had at heart. Christina haha well...if you knew her you would understand why I love her sooooo much. Shes awesome and just like me haha. I really think we have the same inside personality just a different body. And my dearest Jessa...We are the kind of friends that dont have to talk everyday but can stay best buds forever just cuz we understand each other in every way possible, and shes a Yankees fan so she kicks ass! Bobby dude...well you would have to know him to know why I am so happy to have met him. I learned a lot about myself. I learned that no guy can ever have complete control of you and no matter how much you might love someone, never believe that they are all you have cuz when they are gone you realize how stupid you were to think that. Im not saying I regret anything...I have no regrets and theres nothing I would change. At the time I could have thought of 574938475 things I would have changed but they were all things I would change about me. Thats not what I relationship is. Its not about one person, its a two way street and thats where my problem was. But thats over with. And then theres Kyle...man where do I start with him. Meeting him was kind of a fate type thing. Its amazing how much we have in common. Ive never met someone who could make me laugh the way he could, even without saying anything. We had some awesome times this summer and Im glad that while hes at school nothing has changed, other than a few things ;-) But thats ok. I was scared when he went away but its all good. I cant thank him enough for all he did while I was sick and in the hospital cuz really without his help I dont think I would have had the courage I needed.
Now on to my favorite PSUers...whether they are still there or not. We def. had our rough times but what in life doesnt? We have all grown up and in turn I feel have grown together again and Im soooo thankful for that. Everyone I met there has influenced my life in one way or the other. You are all great people.
Ricky is my older brother, genetics dont mean anyhting. He is an AMAZING listener and is always there for everyone no matter what. I hope you know that whenever you need it, Im always here for you bro.
Jamie, my roomie (other than Mary haha)...We had some great times. Haha our late night face washings and our talks before bed and our bed time music with buggy the radio. Not to mention Asshole Ryan and all our pranks on him lol. I cant thank you enough for sticking by me and for your kind heart you have all the time.
Mary aka MT...You are one of a kind I tell ya lol. You can make anyone laugh whether you mean to or not lol. Ill never forget our English class and all the good times in 309 with you and Jamie. Your a great person and Im glad you found happiness cuz you def. deserve it. Im glad we talk again and I want you to know I am here for you.
Merrill aka Merr...Wow umm soo many memories, both good and bad. But above all you are a great friend. Im glad you came down this summer, it was really nice seeing you. Im thankful that we can be friends and hold no grudges. You are a good person and should always remember that, no matter what life hands you you are strong enough to overcome it.
And Christina...well read above for my comments on her haha. Spring is gonna kick ass. Me + You + Kyle's hockey stick = unstoppable haha I love you girl. Always remember Miss Alaska and the Pineapple Juice lol.
These people are the people who have shaped me to become the person I want to be. I used to think of myself as "someones" girlfriend...but I was wrong. I am my own person and all of you have taught me about that in one way or another. Thanks guys I love you all.