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[ashleybriana]

I want to write, something. My brain hand connection feels blocked. It seems like a time of retreat for me right now. I've been having strange dreams, waking up alone because Ryan is already at work. I fall asleep next to someone every night and wake up alone almost every morning. I get sad & anxious & sometimes scared. My mind wanders in the morning. I feel lonely, first of all. Secondly, I usually dread work because I'll be getting there right when Ryan is leaving.

I am in a strange place. I am in a strange mood. I am sitting on the couch in a very quiet house. Wishing I knew what to do. Baby, I miss you.