I'm so over with everything...

[ashleyann]

I just can't fake it anymore, I'm not happy or content with almost anything in my life. Which, I suppose is normal for a teenager, but I not used to it. I'm all of a sudden insecure about everything little thing, things I never thought twice about before. Unimportant things like make up, I honestly bought over the last year maybe 40 dollar's in

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Thank you.

[ashleyann]

Thank you, Josiah for always being there for me, even when I don't realize it and sometimes when I don't want you to be. I wrote that entry kinda wanting someone who cared about me to read it and tell me what I knew, but didn't want to believe, but more so I just wanted to see what I was thinking and I'd hope I'd forget it, not needing any help. (That's the hardest thing for me right now. ) I had forgotten I had given it to you or Mike (though, his kinda distracted right now, anyway) I'm not used to being insecure and weak, not that I was all always the strongest person, I just never really cared about anything like hair, clothes or make-up. And when I pretend to, you were always there for me, never discouraging but sometimes laughing.
I'm sorry I didn't really talk to you Sunday mourning, I was in a still in bad mood, I was afraid I'd say something I didn't mean, so I tried to say very little. What you said did help me some, I kinda felt worse after I read what you wrote. I understand why you asked me if I commented in your journal, it wasn't me, but I shared that anonymous' girl feelings a while ago, I wondered if maybe I should have tried harder, but decided it was to late, and i wasn't going to dwell on it.

In
His
Love,
Ashley