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Today was the last game. In my mind it was the last game of the season, not my last game, ever. Doesn't feel like I'm done.
I loved my senior gift, and I loved the gift from BK, and I loved the love I felt for the drum line tonight...but It just doesn't feel like this is it. When it hits me, it's gonna hit me hard...and that makes me sad.
This week has been chock-full of emotions and I really wish it wasn't over. Band festival was one of the most amazing and memorable experiences in high school thus far. There's nothing like stepping onto that field knowing that it's the last time and whatever happens is the product of your leadership. The adrenaline and overall experience is amazing...absolutely amazing and unforgettable. I said I didn't want to be a senior and a section leader in the band that got a two...what I didn't say was how much I wanted to be a senior and leader in the band that got a one....making it a decade we've been getting ones.
So tonight is still surreal to me. I only cried when I opened the gift from BK...god I love that girl more than anyone will ever know. I didn't feel the need to cry any other time...I'm not sad yet that it is over. I'm happy that I survived quite honestly. Tonight was just really really fun...Thank you drumline, BK, Holly, Linda, Julia, Shawnsie and everyone else. It's been great. Really Really great.
I don't know what to say anymore...you had to be there to understand I guess.
I loved my senior gift, and I loved the gift from BK, and I loved the love I felt for the drum line tonight...but It just doesn't feel like this is it. When it hits me, it's gonna hit me hard...and that makes me sad.
This week has been chock-full of emotions and I really wish it wasn't over. Band festival was one of the most amazing and memorable experiences in high school thus far. There's nothing like stepping onto that field knowing that it's the last time and whatever happens is the product of your leadership. The adrenaline and overall experience is amazing...absolutely amazing and unforgettable. I said I didn't want to be a senior and a section leader in the band that got a two...what I didn't say was how much I wanted to be a senior and leader in the band that got a one....making it a decade we've been getting ones.
So tonight is still surreal to me. I only cried when I opened the gift from BK...god I love that girl more than anyone will ever know. I didn't feel the need to cry any other time...I'm not sad yet that it is over. I'm happy that I survived quite honestly. Tonight was just really really fun...Thank you drumline, BK, Holly, Linda, Julia, Shawnsie and everyone else. It's been great. Really Really great.
I don't know what to say anymore...you had to be there to understand I guess.