and the emo mood sets in...
worst day ever.
seriously .. i woke up today trying to convince myself that this was going to be a good day but it all turned to shit. seriously i dont think i have ever been in a worse mood than this. i have done absolutely nothing all weekend. no joke. im grounded so i cant really do much but what makes it worse is that my mom has had the whole weekend off and tomorrow too :\
and she is being annoying like whoa.
well i have done stuff but only with my mom and its been like going shopping with her which is most definetly not my idea of fun because we both get in the worst mood with eachother if we are together too long. and this weekend has definetly been WAY too long. at least tomorrow i am going up to the lake, and im bringing elizabeth and aaron. louie was supposed to go, hes not, big surprise.
and yeah.. when i woke up this morning i was happy because its sunday and i used to hate sundays but recently me and louie have been hanging out on sundays and that was always a good way to start off my school week by seeing him the day before. guess what? i sat around all day and cleaned the entire house, did my laundry so i would have good clothes to wear in front of him, did all my homework (which was alot) all before 5 which was when he got off work .. all in HOPES of seeing him.
so yeah.. 6:30 comes along and he still hasnt called me. you can imagine how thrilled i was about that. let me tell you. so my mom was like "well ash if louie doesnt call soon do you want to go out to eat with me?" and i was like "sure". so i was going to wait around here until 7 but just decided to take my cell with me, figuring he would call. yeah - turns out he didnt call until about 8. fucking sweet. it was kind of weird though because i was crying and i had the phone in my hand and i was like "whatever i really want to see louie so im just going to call him" but then the phone rang and it was my big bad boyfriend :) how grand.
ugh so we talk for like 5 minutes because he is in the car and on his way to krogers to get some shit for his dad. he hangs up with me when he gets there and says he'll call me when he gets back home. so he does. and tells me of his exciting adventures of being pulled over by the cops, two of them actually while them acting like drill sargents and screaming in his face. maybe thats what he needs. then he was scared to ever go out of the house again. he said so. so later on he goes "yeah your doing something tomorrow arent you" and im like "yeah.. why" and hes like "oh i was just wondering" and i was like "yeah we are going up to the lake, we were going to go tonight but i told my mom i didnt want to just in case you wanted to hang out with me tonight" and his famous response was "ohh". that was it. i was fucking hinting i really needed to be with him. seriously i needed him so bad. i have been in the worst mood all day and throughout the bad i was like "oh everything will get better after 5 when i get to see louie". i seriously get my hopes up way too high. and its over things that i shouldnt have to hope for. HE IS MY BOYFRIEND AND HE SHOULD WANT TO SEE ME ANY CHANCE HE GETS. this seriously happens everytime we have a good oppurtunity to hang out for a long time. i dont have school tomorrow which is different from any other sunday, i wouldnt have to be home early. but no, he cant hang out with me.
seriously so pissed right now - you have no idea. and we also talked about homecoming some more. his mom came up to the bowling alley last night and she asked him about homecoming :) she was like "louie isnt homecoming coming up pretty soon?" and hes like "i dont know" and when he was telling me this im like "yeah you do!" and hes like "haha thats what my mom said" and then he said his mom was like "well if ashley wants to go your going.. i hope you know that" haha. fuck yeah even his mom is bitching at him about it. seriously he told me he would do anything for me. LIES LIES LIES. number 1 and 2) he isnt going to my cottage with me tomorrow so he can be with me for a entire day which doesnt happen anymore NOR meeting my family. so that is actually 2 things he isnt doing for me right there. and number 3) he isnt going to homecoming with me.
he could tell the entire time on the phone that i was pissed and he was asking about everything. everything he would talk about would be "ashley.. is that what your mad about" and im thinking "I JUST WANT TO SEE YOU .. THATS WHAT IM MAD ABOUT"
so he got off the phone with me to eat and is like "so yeah.. you can call me later" and me = :: long pause with no response :: and he goes "or not" and im like "yeah.. i think im going up to my cottage tonight" (no im actually not but i did not want to talk to that asshole anymore) and hes like "alright well ill talk to you later.. or tomorrow or .. sometime" and im like "mm hmm yeah bye" and hung up.
wow best day EVER.
seriously .. i woke up today trying to convince myself that this was going to be a good day but it all turned to shit. seriously i dont think i have ever been in a worse mood than this. i have done absolutely nothing all weekend. no joke. im grounded so i cant really do much but what makes it worse is that my mom has had the whole weekend off and tomorrow too :\
and she is being annoying like whoa.
well i have done stuff but only with my mom and its been like going shopping with her which is most definetly not my idea of fun because we both get in the worst mood with eachother if we are together too long. and this weekend has definetly been WAY too long. at least tomorrow i am going up to the lake, and im bringing elizabeth and aaron. louie was supposed to go, hes not, big surprise.
and yeah.. when i woke up this morning i was happy because its sunday and i used to hate sundays but recently me and louie have been hanging out on sundays and that was always a good way to start off my school week by seeing him the day before. guess what? i sat around all day and cleaned the entire house, did my laundry so i would have good clothes to wear in front of him, did all my homework (which was alot) all before 5 which was when he got off work .. all in HOPES of seeing him.
so yeah.. 6:30 comes along and he still hasnt called me. you can imagine how thrilled i was about that. let me tell you. so my mom was like "well ash if louie doesnt call soon do you want to go out to eat with me?" and i was like "sure". so i was going to wait around here until 7 but just decided to take my cell with me, figuring he would call. yeah - turns out he didnt call until about 8. fucking sweet. it was kind of weird though because i was crying and i had the phone in my hand and i was like "whatever i really want to see louie so im just going to call him" but then the phone rang and it was my big bad boyfriend :) how grand.
ugh so we talk for like 5 minutes because he is in the car and on his way to krogers to get some shit for his dad. he hangs up with me when he gets there and says he'll call me when he gets back home. so he does. and tells me of his exciting adventures of being pulled over by the cops, two of them actually while them acting like drill sargents and screaming in his face. maybe thats what he needs. then he was scared to ever go out of the house again. he said so. so later on he goes "yeah your doing something tomorrow arent you" and im like "yeah.. why" and hes like "oh i was just wondering" and i was like "yeah we are going up to the lake, we were going to go tonight but i told my mom i didnt want to just in case you wanted to hang out with me tonight" and his famous response was "ohh". that was it. i was fucking hinting i really needed to be with him. seriously i needed him so bad. i have been in the worst mood all day and throughout the bad i was like "oh everything will get better after 5 when i get to see louie". i seriously get my hopes up way too high. and its over things that i shouldnt have to hope for. HE IS MY BOYFRIEND AND HE SHOULD WANT TO SEE ME ANY CHANCE HE GETS. this seriously happens everytime we have a good oppurtunity to hang out for a long time. i dont have school tomorrow which is different from any other sunday, i wouldnt have to be home early. but no, he cant hang out with me.
seriously so pissed right now - you have no idea. and we also talked about homecoming some more. his mom came up to the bowling alley last night and she asked him about homecoming :) she was like "louie isnt homecoming coming up pretty soon?" and hes like "i dont know" and when he was telling me this im like "yeah you do!" and hes like "haha thats what my mom said" and then he said his mom was like "well if ashley wants to go your going.. i hope you know that" haha. fuck yeah even his mom is bitching at him about it. seriously he told me he would do anything for me. LIES LIES LIES. number 1 and 2) he isnt going to my cottage with me tomorrow so he can be with me for a entire day which doesnt happen anymore NOR meeting my family. so that is actually 2 things he isnt doing for me right there. and number 3) he isnt going to homecoming with me.
he could tell the entire time on the phone that i was pissed and he was asking about everything. everything he would talk about would be "ashley.. is that what your mad about" and im thinking "I JUST WANT TO SEE YOU .. THATS WHAT IM MAD ABOUT"
so he got off the phone with me to eat and is like "so yeah.. you can call me later" and me = :: long pause with no response :: and he goes "or not" and im like "yeah.. i think im going up to my cottage tonight" (no im actually not but i did not want to talk to that asshole anymore) and hes like "alright well ill talk to you later.. or tomorrow or .. sometime" and im like "mm hmm yeah bye" and hung up.
wow best day EVER.