this post was made in the heat of passion, so please overlook any typos or grammatical errors
I guess I should say something before I go insane. I know I said I would be on a break but it’s been eating away at me.
This is an eye opener of some sorts. I can draw the conclusion of who my real friends are as opposed to fair-weather friends. Here is a resounding fuck you. None of you know what I’ve gone through and as much as I’ve listened to your problems and been behind you, you don’t do the same for me? You don’t know the whole story because you weren’t in the relationship. You don’t know what was said or what was happening between us. I came to you for support and you turned on me. It speaks volumes for me and karma is a bitch. Remember that.
I’m not blaming Elisha. It wasn’t her fault and she saw the same things I saw in Jared.
As for Jared, I loved him. I still do. You can’t just turn off feelings for someone. Or maybe you can but I’m not the person who can do that. I had promises made to me and I believed them. Things may change but it still doesn’t cushion the fact that the person doesn’t share the same feelings as you do with them. I keep hearing how people can’t help how they feel but this could have been avoided if he didn’t get into a relationship with me in the first place and lead me on, because that is how I feel. I was lied to and there is no way around that. It’s an awful feeling. None of you stopped to think about how it was going to feel for me. You jumped the gun so quickly to defend that he did nothing wrong, that he wasn’t in a relationship with me anymore, but I was still led on. I repeatedly asked if something was going on and was told it was harmless flirtation. I was even made out to be the bad guy for asking, I was made to feel like it was my fault. He could have been upfront with me and then I wouldn’t have been so upset.
Does anyone know how it feels to have your heart broken and have your best friends not be there for you just when you need them the most? I could go on about that, but this post isn’t for sympathy, it’s an eye opener for me. I don’t want or need pity. I’ve got my resolution and frankly, now that I know who my friends are, that’s all I need. I'm gone for awhile now; if you need me, Sanoe's guarding the door.
This is an eye opener of some sorts. I can draw the conclusion of who my real friends are as opposed to fair-weather friends. Here is a resounding fuck you. None of you know what I’ve gone through and as much as I’ve listened to your problems and been behind you, you don’t do the same for me? You don’t know the whole story because you weren’t in the relationship. You don’t know what was said or what was happening between us. I came to you for support and you turned on me. It speaks volumes for me and karma is a bitch. Remember that.
I’m not blaming Elisha. It wasn’t her fault and she saw the same things I saw in Jared.
As for Jared, I loved him. I still do. You can’t just turn off feelings for someone. Or maybe you can but I’m not the person who can do that. I had promises made to me and I believed them. Things may change but it still doesn’t cushion the fact that the person doesn’t share the same feelings as you do with them. I keep hearing how people can’t help how they feel but this could have been avoided if he didn’t get into a relationship with me in the first place and lead me on, because that is how I feel. I was lied to and there is no way around that. It’s an awful feeling. None of you stopped to think about how it was going to feel for me. You jumped the gun so quickly to defend that he did nothing wrong, that he wasn’t in a relationship with me anymore, but I was still led on. I repeatedly asked if something was going on and was told it was harmless flirtation. I was even made out to be the bad guy for asking, I was made to feel like it was my fault. He could have been upfront with me and then I wouldn’t have been so upset.
Does anyone know how it feels to have your heart broken and have your best friends not be there for you just when you need them the most? I could go on about that, but this post isn’t for sympathy, it’s an eye opener for me. I don’t want or need pity. I’ve got my resolution and frankly, now that I know who my friends are, that’s all I need. I'm gone for awhile now; if you need me, Sanoe's guarding the door.