to the year 2004
it's 2004, a new year! i believe my expectations were to high. This year was supposed to be different from the last. Yes i know it's only the 4th day of the year. But already things are just the way they used to be. nothing has changed. I absolutely can't go through another year if it's like 2003. I don't even know how i made it through 2003. It was def. one of the most difficult years!
There's so much i can feel missin in my life. i'm tired of the same old shit. Somethign needs to happen. Parts of my life I know arent' right. I feel like i'm supposed to be doin somethign or like i'm waiting for something.. but nothing is happening.
I get so confused about you sometimes. Everything about it just makes me want to cry. One minute i'm fine and i'm feelin like it's changing and that you're changing and that everything is goin to be okay, and then the next everything has crumbled again.
I feel like i can't trust you. and i have probable cause not to. Even though when u say things to me they feel right and they seem as there's genuine, in the back of my mind i'm second guessin everything you say! It can't be like that. I'll go crazy!! I don't know what to do about this anymore.