May 21, 2005 19:19
I just don’t know anymore, about anything, nothing at all. Everything is just a blur. It’s like I used to see my whole life with perfect vision, like I wore glasses all my life, which created that perfection, and then someone took them away, suddenly leaving me with blurred vision. Sometimes I think it’s a tree other times I think it’s a bush. But I never really figure out quite what it truly is. I see people one way one day and then another way the next day. Or even one minute one way, and the next minute another way. I want my glasses back; I want to know if you’re a bush or a tree. But I can’t make that happen, I don’t know how it will happen, I just hope it does, and sometime soon. I wish I knew how to change it all, to make it all clear. But I don’t, and I guess for now, I should just try working on accepting that.