things occasionally weird me out
There's two things that are weirding me out right now.
Number one thing weirding me out is the dream I had last night. In my dream, my friends Mattie and Dana were with me, and we had gone to what I think was my sister's graduation from middle school. At the school, we kept running into all these people, and my friends kept getting exasperated because I kept disappearing and wandering off and talking to people. In real life, I know a lot of people and teachers at my sister's middle school, and so in my dream usually I was talking with them. One of the times I wandered off, I was chatting with one of the teachers and we were walking, and as we walked down by these shelves away from all these people, he suddenly grabbed me and kissed me. I was totally freaked and I was like, "no, get off, Mr. W," but he kept laughing and trying to pull me back. I ended up walking away and my friends showed up and were like, "Where WERE you?" and they were all exasperated again but I was just weirded out and didn't say anything. This is the part of the post where anyone reading it would be like, okay, silly girl obviously has a crush on the teacher but that is NOT the case with this teacher. He's old and kind of a nerd and he's like my mentor, and I'm totally disturbed because even though it was just a dream, I still can't believe it happened in my dream. I was like afraid. The really weird thing about this is, I had one dream about this teacher when I was his student. I was thirteen and I dreamed that he started dating my mom and tried to tell me he was my dad. That creeped me out too and I couldn't look him in the face for like a month. The funny thing is, he's not creepy in real life, and I definitely do not have a crush on him, so I don't know why I have creepy dreams where he creeps me out.
Number two thing weirding me out is this problem with my Neighbor Kid. He's like my brother, he and his siblings grew up with me and my sisters. I started being a little weirded out at a New Years Eve party this year when his comically inebriated dad started this long conversation with me about how his son (Neighbor Kid) was going to fall in love with me because we hang out all the time. Seriously uncomfortable conversation. I hang out a lot with my Neighbor Kid, and tonight I was over at his house and we were sitting on the couch in his basement, and he tried to kind of half-lay in my lap and I got creeped out and made an excuse for him to move. So now I'm not going over there or hanging out with him for a while. Because I SO do not want him to like me. EVER.
Also I have a small problem of needing to have $307.50 for my rent by this Sunday, and I only have $110. So I need to ask my parents for the money (AHHHHHHHHHHH I AM AFRAID) or pawn something really quickly. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GOING TO DO.