Unspoken Words!!
Everyday it gets harder to walk into those doors. I wish I could run away from it all, but there's no where to run except home! I know it seems like things are perfect, but there are secrets that should never be spoken of . Its hard to go back alone, but I force the smile on my face and hold back the tears and walk through the door back into all the pain. I hate myself for going back, but what am I supposed to do? On the inside I scream "HELP ME GET AWAY FROM THIS PLACE". No one hears these screams because the beautiful smile and loveable laugh cover up the pain and tears! There are so many things I should tell you for making me feel this way. I don't say a word, instead I keep these thoughs locked inside my head, but I do say " I'm Fine" and look away while tears fall from my eyes.Why am I so afraid to talk? I know i'm a coward because I let you tear me apart with your evil words. Your insults and curses make me feel like i'm not a person. Today I sit back and remember all the hateful things that you ever said to me and I laugh...You look at me and ask why are you laughing. I'm laughing because i've finally realized that I wasn't the coward you were! I never once had to tear you apart with hateful words to make myself look and feel better.