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Look's like my boyfriend inspired you all *laughs* now everyone is writing the long entries. So I was thinking why not join in on the fun. I have alot on my mind, and maybe I can get out here. I don't even know where to start. Reading Matt's entry made me think about my career and how far I've come. He made me think about how thankful I should be for what I have. And I am thankful, but it just seems like sometimes I take things for granted. I mean, I can't even walk down the street without camera's flashing in my face or without someone yelling my name to smile for them. I have to disguise myself to go out in public. And I love what I do, I love singing and dancing. I always have. I was just always one step behind my sister it seemed like. And alot of younger siblings feel like that. And it just feels like you'll never match up to them. And it's hard because you have dreams too that your older sibling is already fulfilling. I look at David as a little brother, because one you think about it, him and I have alot in common. We've both had to go thru our siblings living in fame, and us just being their little followers. Just the extras in the family.
But now, I'm almost as big as my sister. My album went triple platnium and you guys have no idea how good that makes me feel. I have shows and photoshoots lined up off the wall and Jessica is right there beside helping me thru it all. And so is Matt. And I have my parents who have always favored Jessica but now their actually seeing my dreams. And their actually seeing what I can accomplish.
I really don't know what I'm complaing about. I have everything I could ever want, I have an awesome boyfriend who I love with everything I have, and I have an awesome sister who's there for me thru everything,and I have best friends who will never let me down and who will take me places if I need to be cheered up.
I guess sometimes it just feels so overwhelming. And it feels like you just wanna get away for a little bit. Because with everything lined up you have no time for yourself or anyone else. But I guess that's what you have to get used to if you want to live up to your dreams.
*Ashlee
But now, I'm almost as big as my sister. My album went triple platnium and you guys have no idea how good that makes me feel. I have shows and photoshoots lined up off the wall and Jessica is right there beside helping me thru it all. And so is Matt. And I have my parents who have always favored Jessica but now their actually seeing my dreams. And their actually seeing what I can accomplish.
I really don't know what I'm complaing about. I have everything I could ever want, I have an awesome boyfriend who I love with everything I have, and I have an awesome sister who's there for me thru everything,and I have best friends who will never let me down and who will take me places if I need to be cheered up.
I guess sometimes it just feels so overwhelming. And it feels like you just wanna get away for a little bit. Because with everything lined up you have no time for yourself or anyone else. But I guess that's what you have to get used to if you want to live up to your dreams.
*Ashlee