real damn bored
So since im at my parents house im going to update
i WISH i had internet at the house :[ so i could put up pictures im oh so behind.
So i really like living downtown
at the moment im some what depressed but doing my best not to show it
trying very hard not to completly fall in a hole
took me so long to get outta the last one : /
my confidence slows me down quite a bit
i have quite a few boy fustrations at the moment
im so fucking high school i swear
for whatever reason lauryn and sarah really would like me to have a bf . .. .i mean ok so would i ....just cuz i like myself as a person better it seems.
i just would like to have someone who could help me
current boy fustrations ....
-one who i fell for way too fast, who i have found out is quite the douche and should have NEVER taken it past friends level. while dating one girl still flirted with me and told me he wish he never screwed things up between us. is now is dating his ex who is fucking crazy. so at the moment i have no desire to speak to him.
-one who i spend quite a bit of time with and probably shouldn't have because i know he really likes me ...and we opened up a HUGE can of worms the other night...and now iunno what the fuck im suppose to do. because yes i enjoy my time with him. but to be honest i really don't see it going anywhere as much as he may want it to.
-one who i have history with and claims he still loves me but sometimes i doubt his honesty although he is one of few boys i trust in. and for whatever reason in so many ways i wish we never had our downs and were still together : /
-one who i have known for such a long time one who in my mind could do no wrong. but has always had a phobia of being in a relationship....damn well wish he'd get out of it because there's never a time he brings me down but always up.
-one who is just way too old but at the same time makes him interesting cuz he lead such an interesting life in my mind. one of the nicest people i know and really glad we have gotten to know each other more lately and able to actually hang out one on one...he doesnt' really count cuz nothing will go past friends with him.
bah im so fucking silly
oh ya ....audrey kitching hung out with us
weird haha
i WISH i had internet at the house :[ so i could put up pictures im oh so behind.
So i really like living downtown
at the moment im some what depressed but doing my best not to show it
trying very hard not to completly fall in a hole
took me so long to get outta the last one : /
my confidence slows me down quite a bit
i have quite a few boy fustrations at the moment
im so fucking high school i swear
for whatever reason lauryn and sarah really would like me to have a bf . .. .i mean ok so would i ....just cuz i like myself as a person better it seems.
i just would like to have someone who could help me
current boy fustrations ....
-one who i fell for way too fast, who i have found out is quite the douche and should have NEVER taken it past friends level. while dating one girl still flirted with me and told me he wish he never screwed things up between us. is now is dating his ex who is fucking crazy. so at the moment i have no desire to speak to him.
-one who i spend quite a bit of time with and probably shouldn't have because i know he really likes me ...and we opened up a HUGE can of worms the other night...and now iunno what the fuck im suppose to do. because yes i enjoy my time with him. but to be honest i really don't see it going anywhere as much as he may want it to.
-one who i have history with and claims he still loves me but sometimes i doubt his honesty although he is one of few boys i trust in. and for whatever reason in so many ways i wish we never had our downs and were still together : /
-one who i have known for such a long time one who in my mind could do no wrong. but has always had a phobia of being in a relationship....damn well wish he'd get out of it because there's never a time he brings me down but always up.
-one who is just way too old but at the same time makes him interesting cuz he lead such an interesting life in my mind. one of the nicest people i know and really glad we have gotten to know each other more lately and able to actually hang out one on one...he doesnt' really count cuz nothing will go past friends with him.
bah im so fucking silly
oh ya ....audrey kitching hung out with us
weird haha