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Well, im not in the best mood right now, so im just gonna get straight to the point. Friday night was soo amazing, it was a night i had been waiting for, for a long time. It may not seem so special because all me and travis did was go get food and to a movie but we haven't been out together just to have fun in forever!! The movie was awesome, everytime i got scared and cracked up laughin! it was great. And then saturday during the day was great too..till that night. I dont want to go into details because it sounds really stupid but it was horrible. Me and travis didn't talk on the phone all yesterday till like 10 last night. That is the longest in almost a year. We talked on here but didn't hear each others voices in over 24 hours. It was soo hard to not call him because i was scared he didn't want to talk to me. So when i finally did get the guts to, he didn't answer..of course. So last night we finally talked on the phone..just about random things. And he decided to let me go to sleep and he kept wispering stuff so that i couldnt hear him and he said it louder and said "ashley, i miss you". And my eyes filled with tears. I had feared he didn't care because of how he acted the other night but i finally knew he really did. Ofcourse i said it back because i really do miss him, but i wasn't ready to say i wanted to be with him again because i want to make sure he really wants that. So we both went to bed and this morning he called me. Everything was fine until he said, "ashley, i want you back". My reply was, i want you back too but i want to give it one more day..like till this afternoon so that you are sure. Well, i think that broke his heart because he got really mad and told me i shot him down. I didn't shoot him down because technically, he didn't ask me out again. Asking me out again would be like "ashley, will you go back out with me"...but he said hes not trying anymore because he doesn't want to get shot down. So it's my choice. Well, i had to get off the phone for school and i said i love you and he said, what now u have to go, and i said yes. and he said fine bye. So we hung up. Well he left me a sweet voicemail right after i left for school and heard it when i got home. I def. need to talk to him..so i hope he gets on fast!
Well school was a blurr..not a good day at ALL....but o well.
Had practice today, went very smoothly, can't wait till tomorrow..next year will be SOOO awesome.
Well im tired so i think it's time for a nap! So im out~ ash
I love himm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!