Cursing makes me feel uncomfortable, but sometimes you just gotta do it...
Hay guess what! The only reason I break up with guys is because I like to see that they still like me. I mean really, what other reason did you think I did. I'm a self centered whore who "plays" guys. That's just what I do. I don't break up with them because I get confused, no that'd be way too nice of me! Nooo, I like to intentionlly hurt guys. You know? Cause that's how I roll. Definatly. I'm a heartless bitch is basically what I'm trying to say. *And yes that whole entry was sarcasm* But from this part on I'm not going to be sarcastic:
Okay. It feels amazingly wonderful to get all my feelings out about Mike. He was saying that I like to break up with people just because I like the feeling of having someone to go back to and having someone to like me. As much as I hate this phrase I'll say it- "That was so dick of him!" When I found out I didn't know exactly who said it. Mike was saying it was Christina and Christina was saying it was Mike. Then I found out it really was Mike. He kept denying it until I told him that I was on 3-way when he admited it to Christina. And normally I'd forgive him in time. These next few words are going to prove two points:
A while ago at Steve-o's party everyone hated me who was there. Except Christina and Kelly. Everyone was talking about me. Mike said that I was "too emotional" and that he "hates" me. Then you know, he apoligizes so I forgive him. A little while later, he makes out with me. But not because he wants to, no of course not.. That'd be to nice of him. He did it just to make sure that he could. Then he gave me hope that we were gonna get back together. Actually it was more than "hope" his exact words were "We'll go out again... I know it." So yeah. Then I tell him I won't wait around for ever. So he goes out with someone else. Because you know, I said I wasn't always gonna be around. But yet again, I forgive him. He'd ask people to call me and tell me that he liked christina and that him and rachel were gonna have sex and that he was gonna finger rachel. Even though, non of it had anything to do with me... And now I bet your wondering, what two points am I proving?
1.- Mike's being a hypocrit because it seems that he's the one who enjoys hurting people and having them like him...
2.- Best friends don't make it through everything... That's what everyone says. And it's not true. We were best friends and now this. Yeah so... Best friends, my ass.
I'm sorry that you all had to listen to all this. You may think it's no big deal. But if it happened to you, you'd all have a very different point of view on it. So shut up. Whatever.
Now I know who my true best friends are and I'd like to thank all of them:
Christina- You are my best friend in the world. I come to you with everything, and I'm hoping you do the same. It's weird because I've only known you for a little bit over a year but oh well. Your always there for me + I'll always be there for you. Sorry if sometimes I bring you down by being there for you. *I heart you- BFFE*
Steve-o- Not only are you my boyfriend, but your my best friend too. I come to you with a lot of stuff and I'm pretty sure you do the same. I feel so comfortable around you, and I don't think I've ever felt this way about someone before. Thank you, for everything. I love you.
Kelly- Your awesome. Your gorgeous both physically and emotionaly. Your always there for you. And I think I could probobly trust you with my life. Your the best. And I'll always be here for you, just as long as your here for me. *BFFL* <3
Chrissy- I haven't known you for long at all, but I feel like I have. Your so easy to talk to. And you tell me what you really think of the situation even if it gets me upset or mad. Your fun to be around and you can be serious. Thanks for everything. *BFFL* <3
Sam- Yeah, we don't hang out a lot. But I know your there when I need you to be and same goes for you. Your great, and please don't ever change. <3 *BFFL*
Nick- We also don't hang out a lot. And I've been disapointed in you, but I know you have with me too. I still consider you one of my good friends though. And I'm hoping you consider me the same. Your cool. And your great for those late night talks on the telly when I won't let you hang up. Mexico! *BFFL* <3
Emilyn- I haven't known you for long at all. But your amazingly funny and you make me laugh even when I'm not too happy. Thanks <3 *BFFL*-izzle.
Sorry if I forgot you. Chances are I still love you. I just felt like puting why I love everyone. And why I hate ssssssssooooooommmmmmmeeeeee ppppeeeeeeoooooooopppppppllllleeee
I love Steve-o <3
Ashlee.