A little other talk
In other news, I got home this evening and got some trash out, started laundry, etc. The usual. Amanda mentioned that my mom had left a message on her phone. She sounded, according to Amanda, like "a different person". I've since returned the call - Amanda's right. Mom's getting out of rehab tonight after 12 days in it. I'm not sure of her exact status, but she says she's down to just standard over the counter Tylenol for pain. I believe her - as Amanda said, she sounds like a different person.
And with Amanda's help, I may have had a little revelation this evening about my relationship with my mom. I resent, as an example, the summer when I was 12. That person, and those actions. That's what I resent. And that's what I avoid. I may eventually get past that ressentment, or I may never. But for as long as I harbor that resentment, I will avoid that person. Not the person that she appears to be tonight, but the person she is when she's doped up.
And I take a lot of peace from that.
And with Amanda's help, I may have had a little revelation this evening about my relationship with my mom. I resent, as an example, the summer when I was 12. That person, and those actions. That's what I resent. And that's what I avoid. I may eventually get past that ressentment, or I may never. But for as long as I harbor that resentment, I will avoid that person. Not the person that she appears to be tonight, but the person she is when she's doped up.
And I take a lot of peace from that.