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Sometimes I really hate my life and wish I could be someone else. I know that when things go wrong in your own life you're supposed to think about what it would be like to be someone who has it way worse than you do and you're supposed to feel better. What if you don't feel better? I feel like no one's life can be worse than mine right now. Which is impossible, I know. Selfish too probably. I'm in this rut that I don't think I can ever get out of. My problems don't go away and I can't figure out how to solve them. I lie, I know how to solve them, but it may require disobeying my heart to do what my head tells me to. My heart sucks, my head sucks, life sucks. Why can't I figure out what I want and be able to say it out loud too?