I'm a Softy, What can I say?
I'm really grateful to have Ashley in my life. You're going to read this and be like, "wow, this is information that could have been brought to my attention 20 minutes ago while we were sipping our iced blackberry green teas outside of starbucks...." I dunno, I just had a strong desire to put it all into words. and publicly did not seem to bother me. I never have to question myself, or process my words over and over in my head before I speak. I can say the strangest, most incomprehensible shit that comes to mind, and I get understanding, and more often that not, a laugh. or, the reverse, i can say really blunt, honest things that other people might be stunned by. it's refreshing. and it's something i know will last, thus, I can exert all the effort I want into it, and I know I will not be disappointed. ...and for the swift kick back into 2nd person...perhaps what amazes me even more about our friendship, is that I can never truly tire of your personality. even if on that off day, i mean like 1 in a 1000, like once every blue moon, i mean once in a life time, haha yah....,where I may get frustrated by one of your annoying, predictable quirks, it never makes me love you any less. i actually look forward to them, mostly because I know you so well and can take solace in that. i probably have mastered your facial expressions and sayings better than my own, and that adds some humor and versatility to life. and i'm assuming, well let's just go with "i know," that you don't exhaust of my annoying habits or characteristics, which by the way unquestionably equal or surpass your own on the annoying scale. heh :)
I do believe I've finally come to terms with the way relationships are meant to work. maybe not in full, or in practice, but at least there is some blatant progress. by relationships, i mean any kind - acquaintance, friendship, love. I've never been good at giving up, or letting go. but i realize now that sometimes that is the best, most appropriate closure to a relationship, and there is no reason to brood if, while it lasted, it was amazing. the really true friends, the most genuine, i do believe will always remain a constant in your life. you can spend a year apart, and pick up where you left off (as the aforementioned person so pointedly mentioned today). And there is nothing wrong with having those great friends that you wish to death would always be there for you. but i realize now, that the paths each of you take may not lead you into a direction that will necessarily allow you to remain friends. and that is fine. adjustment, obviously, will need to be made. adjustment is a positive experience though, and I'm really happy that I can understand that now, with all my relationships.
Usually I get annoyed by entries that are quasi-philosophical like this, so pardon me on that account. not that this even approaches intense philosophical thoughts, but oh well.
I do believe I've finally come to terms with the way relationships are meant to work. maybe not in full, or in practice, but at least there is some blatant progress. by relationships, i mean any kind - acquaintance, friendship, love. I've never been good at giving up, or letting go. but i realize now that sometimes that is the best, most appropriate closure to a relationship, and there is no reason to brood if, while it lasted, it was amazing. the really true friends, the most genuine, i do believe will always remain a constant in your life. you can spend a year apart, and pick up where you left off (as the aforementioned person so pointedly mentioned today). And there is nothing wrong with having those great friends that you wish to death would always be there for you. but i realize now, that the paths each of you take may not lead you into a direction that will necessarily allow you to remain friends. and that is fine. adjustment, obviously, will need to be made. adjustment is a positive experience though, and I'm really happy that I can understand that now, with all my relationships.
Usually I get annoyed by entries that are quasi-philosophical like this, so pardon me on that account. not that this even approaches intense philosophical thoughts, but oh well.