transcendent
Date: October 1990
Subject: Kira brings a notebook with her to Wutai.
Rating: PG
Status: Closed to IC comments
Day 1
I kind of hate missions. Not that they're not interesting, and we get to see a lot of different places and fight lots of different things, but I've gotten so used to the convenience and technology of Shinra that I'm always at a loss without it. I have no idea how to cook; when we have to make our own meals on extended missions like this, I always end up either mooching off someone or heating the food to a crisp with my Fire materia. (They call it burnt, I call it well-done.) And I haven't handwritten anything in so long, my writing looks like chicken scratch. But I had to write something while I was away (despite being cheap therapy, it's effective), so I grabbed a notebook and pencil from the store on our way out of Midgar.
If I wasn't buying so much coffee (not that the coffee isn't worth it; it definitely is), I'd get one of those little handheld computers that the execs have. Then maybe I'd be able to see what's going on back home, instead of occasionally texting Kunsel-niichan. I wonder if he ever found anything more out about that suspicion of his...
Day 2
It's raining.
It's really rare that I actually get to see rain. That's why my mother named me Rain - she missed it, living under the plate after my father brought her back to Midgar. I got teased occasionally growing up with a name like that. Or maybe more than occasionally, I really can't remember.
Anyway, after I came to Shinra, I took my mother's last name and started using 'Kira' as my given name.
I wonder why Cloud is named Cloud?
Day 3
Sometimes when I wake up from a dream, I can't move. It happened earlier this morning (if you can call 3AM morning; I don't care if I'm on a mission, sleep is sleep).
In my dream, I was fighting some sort of monster, like the ones that escaped from Hojo's lab that one time. And it wasn't just one or two, it was too many, an endless wave of monsters all howling and trying to get at me. It was fine at first, but even a SOLDIER gets tired, and soon I couldn't stop them anymore. So I had given up, and was lying there just letting them tear me apart. And it hurt, too; it was one of those scary-realistic dreams, enough that I could feel the blood running down my body. And then it seemed like they were all gone, so I tried to get up and find my Cure materia, but there was one left apparently, and it attacked my face.
It took me a moment to realize that it had taken out my right eye, right after I woken up and noticed that I couldn't see. I was sure I was awake; I could see the roof of my tent, and hear the snoring of the guy in the tent next to me. But the view was red, and half of my vision was gone completely, and I could still feel the blood slowly sliding down my body, seeping into the rumpled uniform I'd fallen asleep in, and into the ground beneath me.
I couldn't do anything. I don't know how long it was - maybe minutes, but it felt like hours - that I was lying there, unable to move or speak or scream...
Finally, I closed my eyes, then opened them, and everything was back to normal. I spent the rest of the day shaking.
Day 4
Today, I had a sudden craving for pistachio ice cream, and I have no idea why.
Battles going on, too tired to think.
Day 6
We've spent the last two days fighting, with no time to do anything. Wutai's putting up an impressive resistance, and all of us are exhausted. And I have to wonder: why didn't Shinra send another unit of SOLDIER with us? Kunsel-niichan's hunches are usually right, but I don't know what that means for us. Things seem to be tenser than ever, which would be normal for most regular troops. But SOLDIERs, at least not the ones in my unit, don't go around all day looking preoccupied and worried, even with all the fighting that we've been doing.
Somehow, I managed to wear my moogle pajamas last night. I hope they'll bring me luck.
Day 7
'SOLDIERs are monsters'?
I heard someone say that earlier.
Genesis is calling a meeting. Maybe he thinks a speech will raise everyone's spirits?
Subject: Kira brings a notebook with her to Wutai.
Rating: PG
Status: Closed to IC comments
Day 1
I kind of hate missions. Not that they're not interesting, and we get to see a lot of different places and fight lots of different things, but I've gotten so used to the convenience and technology of Shinra that I'm always at a loss without it. I have no idea how to cook; when we have to make our own meals on extended missions like this, I always end up either mooching off someone or heating the food to a crisp with my Fire materia. (They call it burnt, I call it well-done.) And I haven't handwritten anything in so long, my writing looks like chicken scratch. But I had to write something while I was away (despite being cheap therapy, it's effective), so I grabbed a notebook and pencil from the store on our way out of Midgar.
If I wasn't buying so much coffee (not that the coffee isn't worth it; it definitely is), I'd get one of those little handheld computers that the execs have. Then maybe I'd be able to see what's going on back home, instead of occasionally texting Kunsel-niichan. I wonder if he ever found anything more out about that suspicion of his...
Day 2
It's raining.
It's really rare that I actually get to see rain. That's why my mother named me Rain - she missed it, living under the plate after my father brought her back to Midgar. I got teased occasionally growing up with a name like that. Or maybe more than occasionally, I really can't remember.
Anyway, after I came to Shinra, I took my mother's last name and started using 'Kira' as my given name.
I wonder why Cloud is named Cloud?
Day 3
Sometimes when I wake up from a dream, I can't move. It happened earlier this morning (if you can call 3AM morning; I don't care if I'm on a mission, sleep is sleep).
In my dream, I was fighting some sort of monster, like the ones that escaped from Hojo's lab that one time. And it wasn't just one or two, it was too many, an endless wave of monsters all howling and trying to get at me. It was fine at first, but even a SOLDIER gets tired, and soon I couldn't stop them anymore. So I had given up, and was lying there just letting them tear me apart. And it hurt, too; it was one of those scary-realistic dreams, enough that I could feel the blood running down my body. And then it seemed like they were all gone, so I tried to get up and find my Cure materia, but there was one left apparently, and it attacked my face.
It took me a moment to realize that it had taken out my right eye, right after I woken up and noticed that I couldn't see. I was sure I was awake; I could see the roof of my tent, and hear the snoring of the guy in the tent next to me. But the view was red, and half of my vision was gone completely, and I could still feel the blood slowly sliding down my body, seeping into the rumpled uniform I'd fallen asleep in, and into the ground beneath me.
I couldn't do anything. I don't know how long it was - maybe minutes, but it felt like hours - that I was lying there, unable to move or speak or scream...
Finally, I closed my eyes, then opened them, and everything was back to normal. I spent the rest of the day shaking.
Day 4
Today, I had a sudden craving for pistachio ice cream, and I have no idea why.
Battles going on, too tired to think.
Day 6
We've spent the last two days fighting, with no time to do anything. Wutai's putting up an impressive resistance, and all of us are exhausted. And I have to wonder: why didn't Shinra send another unit of SOLDIER with us? Kunsel-niichan's hunches are usually right, but I don't know what that means for us. Things seem to be tenser than ever, which would be normal for most regular troops. But SOLDIERs, at least not the ones in my unit, don't go around all day looking preoccupied and worried, even with all the fighting that we've been doing.
Somehow, I managed to wear my moogle pajamas last night. I hope they'll bring me luck.
Day 7
'SOLDIERs are monsters'?
I heard someone say that earlier.
Genesis is calling a meeting. Maybe he thinks a speech will raise everyone's spirits?