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I totally give up on life right about now. i don't know what makes me feel this way or wwhat made me decide this but its my decision. Oh well i have been alone for so long of my life i think a littlelonger isn't gonna hurt me. I am not saying i don't have the opportunities to be with someone.... but right now i feel i should stay by myself. I really would like to continue to see these people, one you know who you are, but as for commintment or anything like a title.. i don't want. if any of this actually makes sense =)
So anyways... i went back to new london this past weekend and like yah two days outta the 5 were actually fun. Wednesday night we just sat around when i got there. Thursday night we went to the bar and then we just fuckedaround after wards and talked to old friends. Friday night everything was going great... i actually started talking to my first love again... i sooo want him still, but anyways he has a girlfriend soo... but anyways me and my friend jenny were gonna hang out with him and aj and like all of sudden i look to my left and i see a cop car and the car he was driving and another car. he had gotten in a car accident. We didn't pull ovr right away because there was another chic there that we don't get along with but once we saw the ambulance coming we decided to pull over. luke is his name, but anyways he was in the bcak of the ambulance and no one knew what was wrong.. and aj had a really bad headache sohe got checked out too. So we went to the hospital with the ambulance and sat there for a while, like 4 hours.. and we see luke and aj both be pushed out on a stretcher and in neck braces to go get x-rays. It was a little freaky. But we finally got to go back and visit them and me and jenny made complete light of the whole situation. They left the hospital and went and got lukes truck because he was driving some one elses car.. and he like pulled up to us and wanted to race and all this shit and he dropped aj off by us and they were completely back to normal. But anyways saturday night we went to the bars again. But this time it was just me and jenny so her being 18 and me being 19 we actually got into a bar which is really cool. Sunday it was time for me to go home. me nor jenny felt the best because we had a rough night at the bar.. but yah ... as i was leaving there she calls and tells me she has bad news. some guy we knew had died in a car accident saturday night. So that was great... im thinking i really need to get outta this town.. lol... but it sucks that i couldn't stick around to go to the funeral or anything which was today. Ihad to work... soo... Last night i went to my cousins house and we went snowmobiling and she remembered at like 10 30 at night that she needed a 2 liter bottle for schoolso we went to the gas station and got one and we came home and were trying to drink it... and like it had like 3/4 left and she dared me to try to drink the rest of it in like 3 minutes for 15 bucks... and so i tried.. i ended up drinking half of it in 2 minutes and i tried to drink more but i just got sick.
but anyways i think i wrote enough and plus my dad is home and pissing me off so i am gonna finish getting ready and go visit jami at work!
So anyways... i went back to new london this past weekend and like yah two days outta the 5 were actually fun. Wednesday night we just sat around when i got there. Thursday night we went to the bar and then we just fuckedaround after wards and talked to old friends. Friday night everything was going great... i actually started talking to my first love again... i sooo want him still, but anyways he has a girlfriend soo... but anyways me and my friend jenny were gonna hang out with him and aj and like all of sudden i look to my left and i see a cop car and the car he was driving and another car. he had gotten in a car accident. We didn't pull ovr right away because there was another chic there that we don't get along with but once we saw the ambulance coming we decided to pull over. luke is his name, but anyways he was in the bcak of the ambulance and no one knew what was wrong.. and aj had a really bad headache sohe got checked out too. So we went to the hospital with the ambulance and sat there for a while, like 4 hours.. and we see luke and aj both be pushed out on a stretcher and in neck braces to go get x-rays. It was a little freaky. But we finally got to go back and visit them and me and jenny made complete light of the whole situation. They left the hospital and went and got lukes truck because he was driving some one elses car.. and he like pulled up to us and wanted to race and all this shit and he dropped aj off by us and they were completely back to normal. But anyways saturday night we went to the bars again. But this time it was just me and jenny so her being 18 and me being 19 we actually got into a bar which is really cool. Sunday it was time for me to go home. me nor jenny felt the best because we had a rough night at the bar.. but yah ... as i was leaving there she calls and tells me she has bad news. some guy we knew had died in a car accident saturday night. So that was great... im thinking i really need to get outta this town.. lol... but it sucks that i couldn't stick around to go to the funeral or anything which was today. Ihad to work... soo... Last night i went to my cousins house and we went snowmobiling and she remembered at like 10 30 at night that she needed a 2 liter bottle for schoolso we went to the gas station and got one and we came home and were trying to drink it... and like it had like 3/4 left and she dared me to try to drink the rest of it in like 3 minutes for 15 bucks... and so i tried.. i ended up drinking half of it in 2 minutes and i tried to drink more but i just got sick.
but anyways i think i wrote enough and plus my dad is home and pissing me off so i am gonna finish getting ready and go visit jami at work!