~!*Nothing ever seems to work out do they*!~
Hey! Well I haven't been up to much lately bored as usual what new about that lol...Well I really don't know what to say I don't think that I have to much to say this time lol...Well I got a invatation to Kari's Christmas party that's next friday so yea I can't wait to go to that..it's going be me, Tiffany, Amanda R, Lindsey, Megan, Sarah, Kathy, Brittany, and Amanda H so yea I think that it's going to be fun. I have decided that I was going to do a Christmas party to but I don't think that mines is going to be until that last day we get out of school for the break pretty much the people that are going to Kari's party are the same ones coming to mine pretty much so yea.
I think that this week has been the worse/not so good of a week for me...I don't know why but it's just not been good...for one this is the most that I sat around in my room just thinking about a lot of things going on that I wish that I could just let out but I can't because I don't want to loose anybody but yet at the same time I think that it will make me feel better to just let it all out...and it sucks because I like someone yet at the same time my best friend likes him and yea he likes her to I believe he does but I have liked him for so long and yea so has she...And well it sucks because I can't tell him how I really feel because I know he likes her plus I don't think that he cares what I think and what makes it worse is that the girl is my best friend so either way it doesn't really matter because I'm going to be hurt by the fact that I know I don't have a chance with him but yet at the same time I think that if I did have a chance that I could go out with him that I wouldn't because I couldn't do that to her knowing that she likes him because I wouldn't want to lose a best friend over a guy because pesonally I don't think that it's worth it...lol that's not even half of what I have been thinking about that's bearly touching the ice lol. Oh yea I do like this other guy to lol and I love talking to him because he just makes me feel special when I talk to him because he knows how to make me laugh and we have had some pretty fun times together but yet I don't know if him and his girlfriend still go out and yea so I don't guess anything is going to happen there either well now it's that just my luck...
Well anyways off that whole subject...well today I went to the Christmas Parade with my brother and his girlfriend we met at his girlfriend's sister house around 5 and sat there for a few minutes and then we left and we all got something to eat at Farrels then we went and parked and we sat in the van and eat until it was time to get out...We got out as soon as we saw the cop cars comming and then Johnathan and Nathan were grabbing all the candy so I let Johnathan put his in my hoddie pocket which was competely full after the Parade was over...After the parade was over we went back to their house and we played a game with the kids for awhile then we left now I'm wore out and tired so yea that's how my day has been today lol.
Here are some Lyrics that I wanted to post the other day but I couldn't find them so yea here they are.
Kelly Clarkson
Behind These Hazel Eyes
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything it felt so right
Unbreakable like nothing could go wrong
Now I can’t breathe
No I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on
Here I am
Once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it
Can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright for once in my life
Now all that’s left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together but so broken up inside
Cause I can’t breathe
No I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Just seeing you it kills me now
No I don’t cry
On the outside anymore
Well I gotta go ~!*Love Ya*!~
I think that this week has been the worse/not so good of a week for me...I don't know why but it's just not been good...for one this is the most that I sat around in my room just thinking about a lot of things going on that I wish that I could just let out but I can't because I don't want to loose anybody but yet at the same time I think that it will make me feel better to just let it all out...and it sucks because I like someone yet at the same time my best friend likes him and yea he likes her to I believe he does but I have liked him for so long and yea so has she...And well it sucks because I can't tell him how I really feel because I know he likes her plus I don't think that he cares what I think and what makes it worse is that the girl is my best friend so either way it doesn't really matter because I'm going to be hurt by the fact that I know I don't have a chance with him but yet at the same time I think that if I did have a chance that I could go out with him that I wouldn't because I couldn't do that to her knowing that she likes him because I wouldn't want to lose a best friend over a guy because pesonally I don't think that it's worth it...lol that's not even half of what I have been thinking about that's bearly touching the ice lol. Oh yea I do like this other guy to lol and I love talking to him because he just makes me feel special when I talk to him because he knows how to make me laugh and we have had some pretty fun times together but yet I don't know if him and his girlfriend still go out and yea so I don't guess anything is going to happen there either well now it's that just my luck...
Well anyways off that whole subject...well today I went to the Christmas Parade with my brother and his girlfriend we met at his girlfriend's sister house around 5 and sat there for a few minutes and then we left and we all got something to eat at Farrels then we went and parked and we sat in the van and eat until it was time to get out...We got out as soon as we saw the cop cars comming and then Johnathan and Nathan were grabbing all the candy so I let Johnathan put his in my hoddie pocket which was competely full after the Parade was over...After the parade was over we went back to their house and we played a game with the kids for awhile then we left now I'm wore out and tired so yea that's how my day has been today lol.
Here are some Lyrics that I wanted to post the other day but I couldn't find them so yea here they are.
Kelly Clarkson
Behind These Hazel Eyes
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything it felt so right
Unbreakable like nothing could go wrong
Now I can’t breathe
No I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on
Here I am
Once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it
Can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright for once in my life
Now all that’s left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together but so broken up inside
Cause I can’t breathe
No I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Just seeing you it kills me now
No I don’t cry
On the outside anymore
Well I gotta go ~!*Love Ya*!~