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life sucks... i wish someone cared about me. i have gotten to the point where everything is like a blur to me and all i can do is watch as other people live my life for me doing with me as they please and when its convenient and then disposing of me as fast as possible. i have no real friends. today and the last month have sucked beyond belif and not one person asked me if i was ok... ever... and my parents (all of them) hate me. and charles... i dont even know. he thinks baseball is more important then me and if it came down to it he'd choose it all over me. oh well i guess i knew it was coming. it was all too good for too long. i havent been on my own in exactly 1 year and 2 weeks... that scares the crap out of me. this all sucks beyond belif