im loving it
today has been the best day of my life... i spent last night with Amanda, Charles, Thomas, and sleeping Mark... it was so fun just to relax and be with people i liked. idk why but i really enjoyed it. so Marina (that girl who moved to rhode island) is back. Charles and here were something a long time ago idk for some reason i dont care, i know he likes me and i trust him to not hurt me. its weird. maybe bc he has said it so many times but it finally hit me. i woke up this AM and was sitting in my bed watching cartoons (bc im cool) and petting hope and eating the rest of my recees cup that i didnt ever finish when i passed out last night. well i was sitting there and suddenly i smiled and thought about how lucky i am. i am the luckiest person ever. i have this amazing boyfriend who likes me just as much as i like him. i have this family who loves me and is happy with me FINLLY. and i have this beautiful home in a beautiful neighborhood and nice neighbors and good friends who would hold me up if i needed them. I have god, and he is the one in charge of all of this. and the only thing in my life i wish i did more im going to do today. my little brother is 10 months and i have only visited him like 4 times ever... i know sad! i think Charles is coming with me after he visits Marina. wow today is awesome! i love life!