hummm... ponder
have u ever had someone say something and you were completly speachless and you didnt know what to do or say back so you just pretended like you couldnt hear it and then changed the subject... well that happened and the issue was not me not hearing it was that i didnt want to hear it and i wasnt ready to hear it. not from this person, not from any person. and the worst thing is that whenever this person said these words i thought of someone else, someone i cant and will never have and that makes me sad. and its horrible that something that makes people so happy makes me sad and depressed and i am incapeable of feeling certain emotions needed to say these words. i dont understand it!
ugh... so i have issues with my parents... and dillon... not seperately but together. it blows majorly :( today was a bad yet totally amazing day. bad because of the dillon vs. parents thing and good bc i hungout with some of the most awesome ppl ever and jenna was there too so it was like the coolest group ever and dillon was there so i was all giggly and YAY! i hate days like today after the day is over and im alone sitting bc then i get all depressed. it sucks
i think i should go running later to get out my anger...
you know what hurts more then anything in the world right now? when you bring someone you adore into a situation and the people who you are wanting to adore this person the way you do -just dont- and then they tell you.... or talk about it behind your back... or worse-are mean to the person in question... that sucks and i hate saying it but it hurt today the worst.
jenna i love you and you are a good friend, and im sorry you had to be in the middle, its not your place to be there and its wrong of them to put you there
god im depressed... pray for me if you read this anyone
ugh... so i have issues with my parents... and dillon... not seperately but together. it blows majorly :( today was a bad yet totally amazing day. bad because of the dillon vs. parents thing and good bc i hungout with some of the most awesome ppl ever and jenna was there too so it was like the coolest group ever and dillon was there so i was all giggly and YAY! i hate days like today after the day is over and im alone sitting bc then i get all depressed. it sucks
i think i should go running later to get out my anger...
you know what hurts more then anything in the world right now? when you bring someone you adore into a situation and the people who you are wanting to adore this person the way you do -just dont- and then they tell you.... or talk about it behind your back... or worse-are mean to the person in question... that sucks and i hate saying it but it hurt today the worst.
jenna i love you and you are a good friend, and im sorry you had to be in the middle, its not your place to be there and its wrong of them to put you there
god im depressed... pray for me if you read this anyone