you've got a lure i can't deny.
it's funny to think that when you lose a boyfriend, you lose all your friends as well. it's not as if i didn't even have the friends first, somehow everything just disappeared from me at the same time and i am left with nothing. it's also funny that the loneliness has not overwhelmed me. it is constant, and won't go away for a long time, but it only pesters here and there and i am basically okay with being alone, being by myself. not meeting new people, and having lost old.
at the same time things are starting to come together for my future. i have switched my bfa to a bs, meaning i have a couple semesters less and will be out of here in one or two. one of my profs is talking to charity, or someone, and trying to get me an internship at spree. though free time doesn't really exist for me, i'm making more money than losing, and my grades are soaring.
i am sick of buffalo and anxious for something larger, where i will blend in, but i will make my last summer here a good one, i will try.
today during class dan and i had plans to make our faces... faces of buffalo. [oh wow you are 25?] [awww you're 21!] i drew my profile it was sweet and pretty. everyone was jealous and the man who runs it said "i've seen 6thousand faces. you are maybe the tenth to draw a profile."
john and i are going to toronto this weekend. i have some money and i am going to shop shop shop. it is exciting when you drop a size so your clothes are baggy and you have to buy new ones. (well not all my clothes are baggy but my jeans). oh and we will find him new aviator sunglasses. i promise! it will be nice and we will swim in the pool and we will hopefully meet up with shifadear.
the taker of these photographs hates them, but i think i like them.
at the same time things are starting to come together for my future. i have switched my bfa to a bs, meaning i have a couple semesters less and will be out of here in one or two. one of my profs is talking to charity, or someone, and trying to get me an internship at spree. though free time doesn't really exist for me, i'm making more money than losing, and my grades are soaring.
i am sick of buffalo and anxious for something larger, where i will blend in, but i will make my last summer here a good one, i will try.
today during class dan and i had plans to make our faces... faces of buffalo. [oh wow you are 25?] [awww you're 21!] i drew my profile it was sweet and pretty. everyone was jealous and the man who runs it said "i've seen 6thousand faces. you are maybe the tenth to draw a profile."
john and i are going to toronto this weekend. i have some money and i am going to shop shop shop. it is exciting when you drop a size so your clothes are baggy and you have to buy new ones. (well not all my clothes are baggy but my jeans). oh and we will find him new aviator sunglasses. i promise! it will be nice and we will swim in the pool and we will hopefully meet up with shifadear.
the taker of these photographs hates them, but i think i like them.