Don't try to wake me in the morning - Cause I will be gone

[ashesofashley]

I had another disturbing dream about him. This has been happening a lot lately. Every night in fact. In this one, he left me to be with someone else...for a day..and then he came right back to me..and pretended that nothing had changed. In past dreams about him, I have caught him with other girls...or other girls call him and I happen to be the one that answers the phone..the list goes on. In these dreams, I'm so crushed and heart broken..but when I wake up, I don't really care. I never think about these things during the day. Why am I having these dreams....every night ? ? ?

My sister left yesterday to go back to Seattle..and I am sad. She cried before she left. It's her time to start over again. Get stable...move into a house, get a job, get grounded again. Her adventures are over for the time being. Reality ended them for her. This world just flat out sucks. I am lonely. I want my sister here with me. When it comes down to it...she's the only one who really gives a damn. I love her for that.

This world sucks..and so does work. Bleh