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With all that's been going on in the past few days, I should be hurt. I should be sad and upset and crying. But I'm not. I'm cool with this. I've done a lot for Sam, and if this is what she wants, then she can have it. You know? I'm not even really that bitter. I've got new friends. I've got two people I know will be staying stable for me for the rest of high school and probably college. I knew Sam wasn't that reliable and that's probably why I'm not hurt. She's done it before, I knew she could do it again and worse. And I was right. Sam's selfish and cold and will drop you in an instant if you don't give her precisely what she wants, whether or not you were there for her in a time when no one else was. I'm thinking she's a narcissist now. She's all high and mighty and everyone else just deserves what she has to give them. SUFFER, BITCH type of thing. We're lame, she's great. You get the idea. And I'm also kinda thinking that she's sadistic as well. Which are two things I've thought of her for a long time. I think she doesn't like her life and she hates herself so she projects bullshit and drama onto other people. She hates Gabbi because Gabbi isn't perfect and is also a reminder of her own imperfections. She hates me because I didn't do precisely what she wanted; acknowledge her greatness and bow down and never forget. And she doesn't like Kelsey because Kelsey didn't do precisely what she wanted either. Don't worry, we're all failures here. In the end, you will know how it feels to be thrashed and trashed by Samantha J. Spada. And she will know that's impossible to live alone with such hate and pain in your heart. So maybe this Sam won't last forever. But it will ruin her life. Unless she gets therapy.
Even with her bullshit going on, things are great. Met an absolutely adorable guy a while ago and got his number yesterday. Have great grades. All A's still. Just trying to get that GPA just a little bit higher. As always. : )
Reno: You're in my thoughts.
Vince: See you not so soon enough.
Colleen: You're a dork and I love you.
I'm looking forward to seeing my food lady today and my therapist. I thought I would be more upset about Sam then my friend Joseph going to J Hall, but I'm much more upset about him than I thought. I had time to think about him between classes and I've been looking for him sometimes... I liked that silly boy.
Right then. Concluding this entry with a quote.
"An insincere and evil friend is more to be feared than a wild beast; a wild beast may wound your body, but an evil friend will wound your mind."--Buddah.
(But not anymore!)
Even with her bullshit going on, things are great. Met an absolutely adorable guy a while ago and got his number yesterday. Have great grades. All A's still. Just trying to get that GPA just a little bit higher. As always. : )
Reno: You're in my thoughts.
Vince: See you not so soon enough.
Colleen: You're a dork and I love you.
I'm looking forward to seeing my food lady today and my therapist. I thought I would be more upset about Sam then my friend Joseph going to J Hall, but I'm much more upset about him than I thought. I had time to think about him between classes and I've been looking for him sometimes... I liked that silly boy.
Right then. Concluding this entry with a quote.
"An insincere and evil friend is more to be feared than a wild beast; a wild beast may wound your body, but an evil friend will wound your mind."--Buddah.
(But not anymore!)