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This is gonna be a long one I think. I'm really bored. I'm stuck at work with nothing to do and I still have an hour left. How dull. My friends wedding is tomorrow and I am dredding it. I really hope that I get paid tomorrow. I need the money. I have to pay 45.00 for my hair plus 25.00 for my nails. I wish that I could just be a joe nobody and just attend the wedding. I mean, dont get me wrong, Im honered that she wanted me to be in her wedding but still, she just chose a bad time to do it ya know. Matt is being an ass. He jsut doesnt get the 170 ever two weeks doesnt cover shit. I spent that at walkmart on her clothes and necessities that she needed like new bottles and her bath seat. I spent well over that. Diapers and wipes are hella expensive. He thinks that he only has to pay like 268 for child support but uh huh no way no how. A hell of a lot more then that. Oh well it's his loss. Maybe if he actually contributed to her he would actually kow how much things cost and what all she needs. But, he'll learn some day. Thank God for WIC thats all I have to say. If it weren't for WIC I would be fucking broke. Her formula is like 26.00 a friggin can. She goes thru about a can every week and a half to two weeks depending on if she's eaten ceral or not. I haven't really given her ceral all that cus shes been staying with Corey and they have been out and about all the time. Once I can stay home with her next month and after that she'll get her ceral and her apple sauce and bananas.
This kid that is a contractor helpin out our direct sales reps for awhile is so annoying. He's getting on my nerves. He just talks about nothing all day and he like hits on me all the friggin time. GRRRR I came to work to fucking work not get hit on. Nastey nastey nastey. Remindes me of our direct sles rep Steve taht does the same thing. I told him one day I was like dude, you're like almost 40. You're right about old enough to be my friggin father go away. He just looked at me dumb founded. He still does it and its groady.
Ashelynn is getting so big. She was so cute. We went to the store on my lunch break and she laughed and giggled the whole time. I miss her. I feel like I never get to spend any time with her. Only on the weekends and they go bye way to fast. I mean, i'm glad that she recognizes me as her mommy but still, I just feel like everyone else is getting the joys of seeing my daughter grow up and I'm missing out. i only get to see bits and peices. I find myself just staring at her at night while she's in her crib sleeping. I mean it seems like yesterday she wouldnt even lay in the damn thing and now she sleeps in it and she can even roll herself over when she doesnt want to be on her tummy anymore. I'm glad that i got to witness her first "real" rollover and I'm happy that I got to watch her sit up in the middle of the floor all by herself. When i say sit up I mean like we put her in the sitting position and she stayed that way. That was a proud day. She is now scootching across the floor, well not too far, she gets like 4 inches from where she started and then gets pissed off.