Thinking...
I have come to the conclusion that I really dislike my ex, Eric. I would have liked to have known why he treated me the way he did. Because I am so terrified to get involved in another relationship. I want to know if I did something wrong, or it was just him. I want to be happy with someone but I can't trust anyone. And that is the biggest part of a relationship. I have tried the whole dating thing and as soon as I start to get close to someone, I find faults in them and break it off. I dont know if I will just "know" when it is right. Maybe it is because I know what I am looking for in a guy and I just have not found it. Who knows...
Work today was stressful. I am posting Edison dues. It takes forever!! I will be so mad if I go in there on Saturday to finish it up, and it doesn't balance. That is so frustrating you have no idea! Today, we had the printer guy come in to look at our printers b/c they are being goofy - this guy is so funny! We were talking about dating and stuff. His daughter is 20, so Vicki and I were sharing our thoughts and he was giving me some good advice. We ordered Chinese for lunch...and...omg did it make me sick. I started to feel sick on my way home and I did not know how I was going to make it home. It was insane. For once I had things I wanted to get done...and of course I had to get sick. I am feeling better now though.
Kate came over tonight after she got off work! She missed the OC, b/c she got off work too late. It was a good one, but don't fret her brother taped it for her. So she is all set!
I am going to be writing my freakin' personal narrative this weekend. I have been procrastinating like no other to write that paper. I really hate writing papers. I played Basketball with Nick on Wednesday...well we didn't play a game we just shot around. It was so much fun! I am definitely not good, but I made an honest attempt. I am so sore today, and I am sure tomorrow will be worse. I need to exercise more. If I do the slightest bit of exercise I am so sore because I do not work out the muscles in my body. It sucks. I wish I had more energy. This time of year I am just so blah.
My mom had chemo today. She actually felt really sick this time, and she threw up. She had a terrible headache and could not get rid of it. I hope she feels better in the morning. I am taking her to the chemo doctor tomorrow to get the shot to build her immunities up. That normally gives her energy for the day. I really hate to see her suffer. I just look at her and she is so pale, its really sad. It is hard to deal with.
I e-mailed a lady I used to work with at the Board Office. Her name is Marlene. I miss her, and everyone else there. I really need to go back and visit. I am a bad ex co-op. Marlene actually retired in June. But I need to go and see everyone else. I hope we can all get together for lunch or dinner one day. That would be a lot of fun. I always think about going up there, but when I am out of work or school all I want to do is go home, ya know?
I am definitely going to make plans this weekend. No hibernation. Luke told me I need to do something and get out of the house. And I agree. I really want to go see that movie Hide and Seek. It looks so good. So, we will see. I am thinking I might call Mike. He called earlier this week and told me if I wanted to hang out - call him. So I just might take him up on his offer! I hope I get the courage to go out in this freezing cold weather. I really like the changing of the seasons, but damn does it have to get soo cold. I got my car washed today and I did the stupidest thing. I got the most expensive car wash b/c I thought, I need something that will get all of this salt off. Well as I was waiting in the line, I thought ok that was stupid...it is going to get dirty 2.9 seconds after you pull out of the parking lot. And then I gave the drying guys a tip and they did a crappy job. So I wasted $15 for nothing. I really hope my doors aren't frozen shut in the morning...that would suck like no other.
Josh called me today. He calls every couple of days. He seems to be doing well in Florida. He is working a whole heck of a lot, which is good for him. I don't know when he is coming back to Michigan.
Oh, by the way if you missed Leroy Wells on American Idol on Tuesday you missed the funniest audition. It was great. I have it on tape. haha
Well, I am off to bed. G'night ya'll!
Work today was stressful. I am posting Edison dues. It takes forever!! I will be so mad if I go in there on Saturday to finish it up, and it doesn't balance. That is so frustrating you have no idea! Today, we had the printer guy come in to look at our printers b/c they are being goofy - this guy is so funny! We were talking about dating and stuff. His daughter is 20, so Vicki and I were sharing our thoughts and he was giving me some good advice. We ordered Chinese for lunch...and...omg did it make me sick. I started to feel sick on my way home and I did not know how I was going to make it home. It was insane. For once I had things I wanted to get done...and of course I had to get sick. I am feeling better now though.
Kate came over tonight after she got off work! She missed the OC, b/c she got off work too late. It was a good one, but don't fret her brother taped it for her. So she is all set!
I am going to be writing my freakin' personal narrative this weekend. I have been procrastinating like no other to write that paper. I really hate writing papers. I played Basketball with Nick on Wednesday...well we didn't play a game we just shot around. It was so much fun! I am definitely not good, but I made an honest attempt. I am so sore today, and I am sure tomorrow will be worse. I need to exercise more. If I do the slightest bit of exercise I am so sore because I do not work out the muscles in my body. It sucks. I wish I had more energy. This time of year I am just so blah.
My mom had chemo today. She actually felt really sick this time, and she threw up. She had a terrible headache and could not get rid of it. I hope she feels better in the morning. I am taking her to the chemo doctor tomorrow to get the shot to build her immunities up. That normally gives her energy for the day. I really hate to see her suffer. I just look at her and she is so pale, its really sad. It is hard to deal with.
I e-mailed a lady I used to work with at the Board Office. Her name is Marlene. I miss her, and everyone else there. I really need to go back and visit. I am a bad ex co-op. Marlene actually retired in June. But I need to go and see everyone else. I hope we can all get together for lunch or dinner one day. That would be a lot of fun. I always think about going up there, but when I am out of work or school all I want to do is go home, ya know?
I am definitely going to make plans this weekend. No hibernation. Luke told me I need to do something and get out of the house. And I agree. I really want to go see that movie Hide and Seek. It looks so good. So, we will see. I am thinking I might call Mike. He called earlier this week and told me if I wanted to hang out - call him. So I just might take him up on his offer! I hope I get the courage to go out in this freezing cold weather. I really like the changing of the seasons, but damn does it have to get soo cold. I got my car washed today and I did the stupidest thing. I got the most expensive car wash b/c I thought, I need something that will get all of this salt off. Well as I was waiting in the line, I thought ok that was stupid...it is going to get dirty 2.9 seconds after you pull out of the parking lot. And then I gave the drying guys a tip and they did a crappy job. So I wasted $15 for nothing. I really hope my doors aren't frozen shut in the morning...that would suck like no other.
Josh called me today. He calls every couple of days. He seems to be doing well in Florida. He is working a whole heck of a lot, which is good for him. I don't know when he is coming back to Michigan.
Oh, by the way if you missed Leroy Wells on American Idol on Tuesday you missed the funniest audition. It was great. I have it on tape. haha
Well, I am off to bed. G'night ya'll!