OK, I know this was from a few weeks ago, but I also know you dwell on things endlessly (like me), so I need to respond to this.
First off... and I want to make this CLEAR, Ash... you are NOT a burden on me, on Rick, on Chris, or on anyone. Therefore, if its 3 am and you feel the need to call... CALL!! I will NEVER, EVER push you away. You know that. I always do my best to make the time for you.. and when my schedule is tight, I tell you. But when you are feeling this down, I make you one of my priorities. OK? No speed bump, and I don't wonder why I have to deal with you. I rack my brain instead trying to come up with ways that I can help you be happier. You aren't a bother Ash, OK? I needed people and they were here for me. Now I'm here for you. And... being here for you makes me feel important, which is something that I need to feel. You see? You DO help people, just in a way that you may not realize. Alright, 'nuff said.
Second... If you want to reply online to the depression ML.. its there to help people. And you don't need to feel obligated to help someone else. For starters... you're young yet. I don't think anyone really expects you to have a wealth of experience and knowledge about what makes people depressed at the age of 16. Thats what we're there for. Those of us that are a bit older, some undergoing treatment, etc... PLEASE.. if you want to post, POST. :) Thats what the list is there for.
Now.. I'm really disturbed about your rant about not making it in life, and dying at an early age poor and unloved. Ash... damnit, you sound just like Rick. JUST like Rick. We fixed it for him. It took a lot of tears, it took TIME, and planning... but we fixed it for him, at least for the present. Hopefully it stays fixed. But life is happier now for him, and the nightmares have gone away, if you can believe that. GONE. Becaus ehis situation changed for the better, and he has been placed in a life where he feels more confident, happier, and like he 'belongs'. I want you to have this too. But it will take TIME, just like Rick.
You're a lot more sensitive than most kids your age. This isn't necessarily a bad thing. But you have to figure out how to get it to work FOR you rather than against you. And that may take some life changes, until you finally find the position that fits. I can't tell you its going to be easy. It's not. It hasn't been for any of us. Being an overly-emotional type can really hurt. But there can be a light at the end of the tunnel for all of us, and you too.
YOU have so much potential, I can't even describe it. I'm going to really be hurt if you chose to give up at this early stage. Because I want to see you get past it. I want to see you reach the point where you can be who you want to be, and live a happy life with people who care about you, and accept you for who you are. Those people are out there. You just have to find them. And when you do, they'll make it all worthwhile.
Please.. no more talk of death. Asher... I care so much for you. I kind of fell like its my position to protect you now, and if you do something rash... well... then I will have failed you. I know this was written a bit ago, but I also know you enough to know that you think about this stuff often enough. Like I did... like I sometimes still do. But leave it at thinking, and when you need somebody, come to us if you can.
You have the ability to do anything that you desire, once you are old enough. Yes, I know.. thats the big obstacle right now... 'old enough'. But when 'old enough' finally comes... we're still going to be here for you. So, why wont you be able to meet us? Or Su? Or whoever you like? Its all up to you. Personally, I look forward to the day when I can say 'Hi' to you in person some time. Because when that day comes, I'll know that you're on the road to being a happier, successful person.
First off... and I want to make this CLEAR, Ash... you are NOT a burden on me, on Rick, on Chris, or on anyone. Therefore, if its 3 am and you feel the need to call... CALL!! I will NEVER, EVER push you away. You know that. I always do my best to make the time for you.. and when my schedule is tight, I tell you. But when you are feeling this down, I make you one of my priorities. OK? No speed bump, and I don't wonder why I have to deal with you. I rack my brain instead trying to come up with ways that I can help you be happier. You aren't a bother Ash, OK? I needed people and they were here for me. Now I'm here for you. And... being here for you makes me feel important, which is something that I need to feel. You see? You DO help people, just in a way that you may not realize. Alright, 'nuff said.
Second... If you want to reply online to the depression ML.. its there to help people. And you don't need to feel obligated to help someone else. For starters... you're young yet. I don't think anyone really expects you to have a wealth of experience and knowledge about what makes people depressed at the age of 16. Thats what we're there for. Those of us that are a bit older, some undergoing treatment, etc... PLEASE.. if you want to post, POST. :) Thats what the list is there for.
Now.. I'm really disturbed about your rant about not making it in life, and dying at an early age poor and unloved. Ash... damnit, you sound just like Rick. JUST like Rick. We fixed it for him. It took a lot of tears, it took TIME, and planning... but we fixed it for him, at least for the present. Hopefully it stays fixed. But life is happier now for him, and the nightmares have gone away, if you can believe that. GONE. Becaus ehis situation changed for the better, and he has been placed in a life where he feels more confident, happier, and like he 'belongs'. I want you to have this too. But it will take TIME, just like Rick.
You're a lot more sensitive than most kids your age. This isn't necessarily a bad thing. But you have to figure out how to get it to work FOR you rather than against you. And that may take some life changes, until you finally find the position that fits. I can't tell you its going to be easy. It's not. It hasn't been for any of us. Being an overly-emotional type can really hurt. But there can be a light at the end of the tunnel for all of us, and you too.
YOU have so much potential, I can't even describe it. I'm going to really be hurt if you chose to give up at this early stage. Because I want to see you get past it. I want to see you reach the point where you can be who you want to be, and live a happy life with people who care about you, and accept you for who you are. Those people are out there. You just have to find them. And when you do, they'll make it all worthwhile.
Please.. no more talk of death. Asher... I care so much for you. I kind of fell like its my position to protect you now, and if you do something rash... well... then I will have failed you. I know this was written a bit ago, but I also know you enough to know that you think about this stuff often enough. Like I did... like I sometimes still do. But leave it at thinking, and when you need somebody, come to us if you can.
You have the ability to do anything that you desire, once you are old enough. Yes, I know.. thats the big obstacle right now... 'old enough'. But when 'old enough' finally comes... we're still going to be here for you. So, why wont you be able to meet us? Or Su? Or whoever you like? Its all up to you. Personally, I look forward to the day when I can say 'Hi' to you in person some time. Because when that day comes, I'll know that you're on the road to being a happier, successful person.
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