its been interesting

[asher1505]

to say the least. ive seemed to have gotten myself in a bind that i cant cover up anymore...i hate how people think that you can make everyone happy, thats seriously impossible. and im sick of people making me feel like ass because ive already made plans by the time they call...im not old enough to go to the bars they go to, nor do i want to put myself in the position at the bar to be tempted to drink..i dont wnat to be the stupid drunk girl that everyone seems to associate with me...i hate the misconception of wantin to have fun and having fun sober... i dont want to drink as much as ive done in the past it makes me feel like ass...i never remembered what it was like to be sober for a long period of time and how good it makes you feel its been that long for me to realize...is this what i want? i know it comes wiht being young but with working mon-fri and on the verge of moving out this would be the time that i dont want to screw up my life!!! i know you may be thinking, how would drinking screw up someones life? it can, it will, and for some it has...its put me in the wrong direction for so long so now that im acutally facing the truth it scares the hell outa me...i cant believe how off track wiht my life that ive gotten ive seemed to put those who mean most to me behind those who i like to party with...and im sorry it took so long for me to snap out of it...ive learned to not put myself in the position if i dont want to be tempted...dont get me wrong i love to go out with everyone n have fun but lately ive been completely fine wiht stayin home with some friends and just playin cards or watchin a movie and if im up for it be a dd on the weekends...and its okay..i guess its all a part of growing up :)

and to make me happy...my parents got me boys to men concert tickets :)