ive never cried this much since the funeral

[asher1505]

wow, i never thought my heart could actually hurt like this again. he promised me this wouldnt happen and it did. i guess you cant help how you feel but i thought after a year things wouldnt be the same anyways just for the fact we were together for so long. i thought things were goin really good untill my gut told me otherwise. its sad cuz i seriously loved him more then anything. i thought for sure this time would work out seeing as how good we were together but i guess i was just imagining all that. i guess he didnt feel the same. i know you cant help how you feel your not supposed to. but they also say if you love someone you gotta let them go which will probably be the hardest thing cuz i cant imagine my life without him in it. ive never loved anyone the way i love him. and i dont think that love will ever go away, thats why i cant be friends with him. i dont want to be friends it never stays that way. im shocked this happened, im still in total shock. i still wanna call him and act like everything is okay, but im not going to. i cant make myself hurt anymore then i already am. im tryin to stay positive, smile act okay, be strong and then i break down again and cry. im sure there are gonna be days that i just wanna cry and cry and cry some more. and thats just what im gonna do, cry get over it and cry til i cant cry anymore. i guess this will be the first summer that i wont have a bf and i can just hang out.

time heals everything, and everything happens for a reason, what doenst kill you makes you stronger, no man is worth your tears, if you love someone let them go, be selfish do something for yourself to make you feel good, and most of all be strong things will get better, keep your chin up and keep living.