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Fuck this shit... i wanna party and go to st. tropez...and fucking do like paris and meet a greek tycoon named ashley and do cocaine and have the most amazing time of my life...i'm dying for school to start wether it be miami-dade or anywhere else...i feel like i have been wasting my time... ilove my fucking job though...i love the thought of me being a litigator, i think i'll be quite good at it. This summer has started a bit fucked up i have to say, as if everyone else hasn't noticed, however the funs have been the funs. This is really quite the general update...but i guess i just figured i'd talk to the monitor for a while. I'm dying to go on a trip somewhere...anywhere really...let's hit up the hamptons or hialeah...all i need is some flow and most of all good company. I will be driving soon and then mostly everything will stabilize itself. I've never felt such an urgency to move on and like be proactive in my life...i've always just gotten by and been ok with it and i've realized that never really suited me because to be where i want to be financially, emmotionally, educationally,...i mean it's time to grow up. I'm knocking on 20 and i keep thinking these amazing things will just fall in my lap...and it's cuz a lot of amazing things have fallen in my lap before...and i dont doubt it will happen again several times in my life, but i can make somethings happen for myself...i don't need anyone to hold my hand anymore to cross the street...and believe it or not that's an amazing feeling...i fall back into uselessness every-so-often...but for the most part i'm getting my shit together. Like eloy has always said you don't have to be perfect to make yourself into the "perfect package", and slowly but surely i'll get there...i wish i was rich and could just say fuck you to whomever i want and i love you to whomever i want and everyone inbetween doesnt count...i feel if i were rich i could seriously help people out, strating with those who count the most to me...you know who you are...i feel for some reason i could do as i please and be a lot less unapologetic if i got the flow to back it up...but like i've said a thousand times..."i'd rather be working for a paycheck than waiting to win the lottery." I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A FUCKING GREAT DAY.