soo there is more to life
I am here, with mixed emotions right now. Im finding myself completely evoloved around jessica, one I do everything with. And I am wondering... is she taking Lisa's place? In a sense... yes. Lately I have grown frustrated that I never get to talk to her (most of it she cant help and neither can I) but when i do, shes always doing something else. Talking to someone else. I love her so much and she means soo much to me, but here I am, going through all these life changing things, and she's not here. working, playing, allll these things that are happening, and I am going about it, without her in it. And it makes me sad. I think the majority has something to do with me feeling like a faliure for not making it up there to see her this weekend, and the fact that I havnt seen her in so long may have something to do with it too. I just really, well I guess you can say.... i really miss her
I have so many mixed feelings right now. My very first job, the one at the family operated catfish house, is done for me. I got fired tonight. I dont know how I should really feel about it. I let my other job, The one I love so much, get in the way, and suddenly, I wasnt enthused about this job anymore. And I slacked off. Alot. and in a sense, I hate that I did, but in another, it opens new doors for me. I went to seek comfort in jessica after leaving the place, and she was shocked. But then, as we hung out and we made plans for other things, I realized that having two jobs was really time consuming. It really was. And since I began work at sonic, I let my other job slide because I felt it didnt pay good enough. ( and for what I went through it really didnt.)
I just dont know how to tell my dad. I really dont. Im not going to tell him that I quit, but I dont want to tell him that I got fired either. But it all comes out eventually.He's been pretty understanding lately so hopefully he wont get upset or dissapointed in me. oh this is horrible. ugh.
anyways, these are just my thoughts. I need to get to bed. I feel like crap. Good night all ♥ ashelanna
I have so many mixed feelings right now. My very first job, the one at the family operated catfish house, is done for me. I got fired tonight. I dont know how I should really feel about it. I let my other job, The one I love so much, get in the way, and suddenly, I wasnt enthused about this job anymore. And I slacked off. Alot. and in a sense, I hate that I did, but in another, it opens new doors for me. I went to seek comfort in jessica after leaving the place, and she was shocked. But then, as we hung out and we made plans for other things, I realized that having two jobs was really time consuming. It really was. And since I began work at sonic, I let my other job slide because I felt it didnt pay good enough. ( and for what I went through it really didnt.)
I just dont know how to tell my dad. I really dont. Im not going to tell him that I quit, but I dont want to tell him that I got fired either. But it all comes out eventually.He's been pretty understanding lately so hopefully he wont get upset or dissapointed in me. oh this is horrible. ugh.
anyways, these are just my thoughts. I need to get to bed. I feel like crap. Good night all ♥ ashelanna