why didn't i just fuckin say yes!?
Christmas wasn't the same this yera, something was very different, but then again someone something very special was added. I went to my grammy ham's yesterday. It was good to be with the family again. I got so money and toe socks from her oh how i love my toe socks. She sent me home with lots of yummy food for lifeformzero since he had to work yesterday. I helpe him eat it! After grammas we went back home to open presents i got lots of things from mom and pat this year which is weird but oh well. i GOT some dishes, lots of em. A new blanket set thats kinda pretty but kinda ugly, a paper shredder(wtf do i need that for?) a new computer desk and chair, more bath shit, and lots of other things. Everyone asked why I didn't bring him with me yesterday they all thought I would. I think my mom and pat really like him! we all went out to eat at aplebees on wednesday and it was nice Im sure LFZ felt a bit uncomfortable but pat had a buzz so he was pretty nice! Today me and lifeformzero made christmas dinner for niki and jose it was cute I made scalped corn, it actually turned out to be pretty decent! then he made the rest haha thats so funny! we had ham and my corn, rolls the good ones yummy, 2 kinds of mashed tatoes, stuffing, and apple pie that i was too full to eat! we all played viseo games for a while i think im hooked on fusion frenxy that game kicks ass now niki must come over lots and lots to play it with me i think shes the only one who shared the same thrills with me today while playing! Then he brought me to my dad's after we picked up neil. Mom and pat were at another christmas thing so i told neil we'd come get him to bring him to dad's. It was fun but I felt horrible almost the whole time we were there. The first thing angel said was "is he your boyfriend?" and i felt so bad cause i had to say no. See my dad and kimber and neil all know but kim hasnt been told yet and i didnt feel like getting into any bullshit today and i didnt want to tell her when he was there i doint want him to feel even more uncomfortable! He got his ear talked off by kim that ws kinda funny. I'm glad that they too seem to like him. I will tell her soon and very soon today just seemed like a bad time, his face was so sad when I said no i wanted to hug him but i wanted to cry cause i was being such an asshole. Zoe liked his spongebob table! which im glad he kept saying "sit" and made me sit on the overly too small for my big ass chair but it was cute! i got more bath stuff agan 2 neclaces i would never ever wear, more plates and shit that are kinda ugly and a pretty cool watch! well i think im gonna go to sleep now!