Stress
Why is it i cant release this stress??I dont have energy for anything anymore.I want to work so bad and just be out doing anything at the moment to get my life back in order.But i also feel as if i am getting dragged down into an empty abyss.Usually when i get really stressed out i would get some of my most violent video games and just unload on them.Grand Theft Auto is good for that.Or if i was lucky enough and i had money in my pocket i would go to a club with a few people i know and just cut loose on the dance floor.But at the moment i cant do these things.Maybe thats Why my stress levels have been multiplying.Now Dru is talking stuff about me to her grandmother saying snegative things about me.God i wish i was dead at times to avoid these hardships and things that come my way.I just am tired of dealing with them.I seemed to be getting hit from all sides and no one is there to even look at me to ask if things are ok.I hate things i hate life and i am starting to despise these women that are in my life "romantically" for most have been selfish.I poured my heart and soul out for these women and i get shitted on.Then they get the nerve to ask me to "drive" them back to where they are from for "money".Not once caring about what i feel.