Arrgh! grrrr! grrr!
Last night Shayne starts bitchin about me taking care of the dogs. She said I don't give anyone else a chance to. Dad thinks the samething. Whatever. So I'm not gonna take care of them anymore. Let Shayne do it. Dad said something about when Shayne gets up before me he tells her to feed the dogs but shes not doing it because she wants to but because dad told her to. She should just do it without being told to. I mean the bird is just mine because I'm the only one that will/would take care of him. If it weren't for me, he'd probably be dead right now.
Went on a bike ride yesterday..mainly to help with running. Dad told me not to go slow because it wouldnt help me any so I went fast. Shayne got made because I was going too fast for her and was ahead of her. She runs faster than me and is always ahead of me but do I get mad at her? NO! I know Shayne is better at so much more things that I am. But the things that I'm better than her or can do better than her its like she has to get mad at me for it. I cant be happy for myself because of her. I just feel like I'm not good enough or can't be good enough.
I cannot live with Shayne anymore right now. She yells at me too much and mostly its about stupid things. Its always like shes mad at me. And I don't do anything to her to make her mad at me. Shes told me its because shes really stressed out right now, but thats no reason to treat me like she does. I mean, yea, if I was the one making her stressed I'd understand, but I know for a fact that I'm not the one.
I don't even know if I can trust her anymore. Sometimes I just feel like she doesnt tell me everything about stuff. I know she lies to me. Coty told me that Shayne said that she mostly only lies to me. So how can I trust her? I havent really been tellin her stuff lately. And I probably won't.
ok. I feel so much better now after gettin all that out. Shayne-you can get mad at me all you want for sayin all this. I don't care.
Went on a bike ride yesterday..mainly to help with running. Dad told me not to go slow because it wouldnt help me any so I went fast. Shayne got made because I was going too fast for her and was ahead of her. She runs faster than me and is always ahead of me but do I get mad at her? NO! I know Shayne is better at so much more things that I am. But the things that I'm better than her or can do better than her its like she has to get mad at me for it. I cant be happy for myself because of her. I just feel like I'm not good enough or can't be good enough.
I cannot live with Shayne anymore right now. She yells at me too much and mostly its about stupid things. Its always like shes mad at me. And I don't do anything to her to make her mad at me. Shes told me its because shes really stressed out right now, but thats no reason to treat me like she does. I mean, yea, if I was the one making her stressed I'd understand, but I know for a fact that I'm not the one.
I don't even know if I can trust her anymore. Sometimes I just feel like she doesnt tell me everything about stuff. I know she lies to me. Coty told me that Shayne said that she mostly only lies to me. So how can I trust her? I havent really been tellin her stuff lately. And I probably won't.
ok. I feel so much better now after gettin all that out. Shayne-you can get mad at me all you want for sayin all this. I don't care.