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[ashdaqt]

Yesterday mom got me up about 7:30. Got on the computer about 7:45. When Shayne got up I got off and got ready to go run. Dad took us to run about 10. I ran 2 miles. I was pose to run 3 tho. I ate 15 minutes before I ran and I ate quite a lot. lol Anyone how runs or has ran knows you can eat and the go out and run. Anyways after 2 miles I had to stop because I felt really sick and I couldnt go anymore. Dad starts yellin at me and gets all mad when I try to explain to him why I stopped. And plus my leg has been botherin me all week. I might of pulled a muscle but no one will listen to me. I'm just gonna keep running on it and if it gets worse it get worse. I don't care anymore. I mean look at what happened to Shayne when she pulled a muscle during track. She wasnt able to run for like 4 months. Yea, thats partly her fault, because she didn't tell anyone until it got really bad. But I'm telling people so it wont get bad and they're not listening. What the hell?! Last year and in 8th grade dad told me that it didnt matter how good or bad I was just as long as I was doing something I wanted to be doing. But this year its like I have to be good or he's gonna be mad at me. I'm sorry if I'm not as good as people want me to be or expect me to be. When I got home yesterday, I went to my room and cried. If dad wouldnt bitch at me and expect me to be the best I could probably do a lot more and do better than I do now. But mom is happy with however much I run. I told her how much I ran and why I had to stop and she said I did good. I don't know...I don't get it. If dad keeps acting like this, its gonna make me hate running and quit. I don't want that to happen because I love running.

Anyways today. Dad had to go to the doctor, so mom and dad are there. Its raining. Arrgh. The dogs just ran out the door barking. It took me forever to get Tobie in. Its freezing outside. lol

I've gotta make 2 people lj layouts. I haven't forgotten..just havent had time. I will do them tomorrow night!