Troy is bad for my mental health...as you will soon be able to see by this entry.
so yeah i know this thing is gay but i have nothing better to do with my time right now. for those of you who actually read this thing...ummm i hope im not really psychotic which you may think after reading this lol.
ok so im home in troy for the week and im going crazy already. i dont know if its because of how much i hated this place when i actually lived here most of the time or if it just brings back bad memories or what but its like something about the water here er somethin man idk.
ok ex boyfriend tho it may seem retarded to some of you
totally ruined my enjoyment of this town. 2 years ago he changed my entire life and when i come back here it just like depresses me
because of that single little event in my life i dont really have permenant friends here ya know well theres lindsay and...the other lindsay lol but even those 2 werent really my close friends until...2 years ago.
he fucked up my home life damnit! i have nothing to do when i come back to this place...sitting around and getting high by myself is a little pathetic and depressing at times can you believe it? ashley not wanting to just get high? yep thats right i need some socialization and i know i become a little anti-social when im in good old b-town but its just because i dont think anybody really cares to see me i guess...idk maybe its just in my head. but i dont really make an effort to talk to people when im not here cuz its kind of hard being busy at school all the time...and i just feel like if i tried to call them now theyd be like wtf why is ashley calling me i havent spoken to her in months...or years ya know?
ok im making myself sound like a loser
but just being home makes me...sad...for no real reason. just sad.
and being at school makes me stressed out.
i need a happy medium.
ok enough for now
this thing will probably be overused this week anyway.
peace out homies
ashlayyyyy
ok so im home in troy for the week and im going crazy already. i dont know if its because of how much i hated this place when i actually lived here most of the time or if it just brings back bad memories or what but its like something about the water here er somethin man idk.
ok ex boyfriend tho it may seem retarded to some of you
totally ruined my enjoyment of this town. 2 years ago he changed my entire life and when i come back here it just like depresses me
because of that single little event in my life i dont really have permenant friends here ya know well theres lindsay and...the other lindsay lol but even those 2 werent really my close friends until...2 years ago.
he fucked up my home life damnit! i have nothing to do when i come back to this place...sitting around and getting high by myself is a little pathetic and depressing at times can you believe it? ashley not wanting to just get high? yep thats right i need some socialization and i know i become a little anti-social when im in good old b-town but its just because i dont think anybody really cares to see me i guess...idk maybe its just in my head. but i dont really make an effort to talk to people when im not here cuz its kind of hard being busy at school all the time...and i just feel like if i tried to call them now theyd be like wtf why is ashley calling me i havent spoken to her in months...or years ya know?
ok im making myself sound like a loser
but just being home makes me...sad...for no real reason. just sad.
and being at school makes me stressed out.
i need a happy medium.
ok enough for now
this thing will probably be overused this week anyway.
peace out homies
ashlayyyyy