Hope...i wish there was something you could take for that

[ashd1001]

i need a buddy
ive been so bored
i need someone to just like hang around with
WHERE THE FUCK IS MR MARC TEDESCO
seriously
calls me all the time when im at school and when i come home hes among the missing
and im getting kind of pissed.
I need a new home life.
ok thats not going to be very easy to fix but i can dream cant i.
new location is key
not going to happen for like 2 MORE FUCKING MONTHS
JESUSSSSS
i called tara and garrett last night
i miss them so much
and ct and jenna and mel and bailey who i talked to today
i miss my oswego babiesss
like right now if i was at school id most likely be high and adult swim in garretts bed with ct playing some stupid word game on the computer

i think i have a slight problem
i have a itty bitty huge crush that is going to die very hard
and it scares me
alot
and i dont like it.

i think this is why i havent called pat back again too
i have a boy-phobia or something
i dont know what my problem is
never seems to end good though
whatever i need to get over this
and stop writing in this gay journal
goodnight

<3 Ash