someone came and washed away your hard earned piece of mind...
sometimes it's fun to run around screaming, acting insane.
sometimes it's fun to cry with friends about something that isn't really important.
sometimes it's fun to talk about old times.
sometimes it's fun to listen to sad music.
sometimes it's fun to think about elliott.
sometimes it's fucking fun to be happy.
but not right now.
life would be so much easier if it weren't.
"it's been too late for a long time."
i'm not a sad person.
shit has happend. a lot.
i'll fucking admit it, because i don't give two fucking shit's if he knows how upset he has made me....losing greg, for good, is really fucking upsetting.
i've been lied to so many fucking times in the past two weeks. it's incredible.
now i now why i gave up having friends in school.
i don't care how melodramatic this all sounds. because i haven't this upset in a long fucking time, because it seems to take a lot to make me really sad these days.
i'm a generally happy person. riding my bike makes me happy.
i wouldn't be going to this stupid shit thing tomorrow, but i really need to hang out with some people. others...i really need to not be hanging out with them, but i'll try and forget that.
it really just amazes me how someone can lie so much and seem so fucking honest.
i didn't know that jeff buckley died in '97. fuck that.
wasn't i just talking about how great it is hanging out with people in school again? and hanging out with those people out of school?
well, fuck that. i'm serious. i'll go fucking insane if i have to watch fucking fake displays of affection that i know are bullshit. i know it'll all be bullshit. even when it's all fucking over, she still got what she wanted and knowing that it never meant anything to him will hurt her, but it hurts me also. because i was lied to. about all of it.
"oh i just told the biggest lie"
sometimes it's fun to cry with friends about something that isn't really important.
sometimes it's fun to talk about old times.
sometimes it's fun to listen to sad music.
sometimes it's fun to think about elliott.
sometimes it's fucking fun to be happy.
but not right now.
life would be so much easier if it weren't.
"it's been too late for a long time."
i'm not a sad person.
shit has happend. a lot.
i'll fucking admit it, because i don't give two fucking shit's if he knows how upset he has made me....losing greg, for good, is really fucking upsetting.
i've been lied to so many fucking times in the past two weeks. it's incredible.
now i now why i gave up having friends in school.
i don't care how melodramatic this all sounds. because i haven't this upset in a long fucking time, because it seems to take a lot to make me really sad these days.
i'm a generally happy person. riding my bike makes me happy.
i wouldn't be going to this stupid shit thing tomorrow, but i really need to hang out with some people. others...i really need to not be hanging out with them, but i'll try and forget that.
it really just amazes me how someone can lie so much and seem so fucking honest.
i didn't know that jeff buckley died in '97. fuck that.
wasn't i just talking about how great it is hanging out with people in school again? and hanging out with those people out of school?
well, fuck that. i'm serious. i'll go fucking insane if i have to watch fucking fake displays of affection that i know are bullshit. i know it'll all be bullshit. even when it's all fucking over, she still got what she wanted and knowing that it never meant anything to him will hurt her, but it hurts me also. because i was lied to. about all of it.
"oh i just told the biggest lie"