Writer's Block: Looking Back
first day on brand new feet. Ben thanks for giving me the info to get this bad boy started. So I am at home "a nice place to live" that is really my town's motto. And I think to myself.....self, start a record, so as you go along your way you can hopefully update this so that your trip is recorded.
I used my phone last night, called someone I wanted to but well probably shouldn't have. I have the huge feeling that she hates/is angry with me. She can be that is her thing, but I do want to see her before I go. I only hope she understands it. I'm just afraid if nature takes me away before the dance I promised to her.
I talked to crackhead last night, over email, so it wasn't full voice or anything, but it felt good to hear that she was wondering what I had been up to, if i was alive and having fun all that good stuff.
Can I tell you how terrified of kareoke I am tomorrow night. Of all the people that will be there, or might be there. Last time I put on a show to show one evil person that they couldn't get to me. Hell I sang Wham! and I think that is when it all started to happen. That someone got lonely and started to see me as an option, thanks to a friend standing right next to them. I am noone option right now, expect maybe one, but they really don't want this option. Oh well. I'm going to pack my car, eat food, and get ready to go back to O-town
Man. I was 23. Just had broken up with Pam because Jeff found out about us. I decided to run away on a cross-country trip so I could get over Pam. Pam found out that evening that her brother was in a car accident & a coma, she called me later that evening to talk to me about it briefly. it's crazy how my life has changed.
I used my phone last night, called someone I wanted to but well probably shouldn't have. I have the huge feeling that she hates/is angry with me. She can be that is her thing, but I do want to see her before I go. I only hope she understands it. I'm just afraid if nature takes me away before the dance I promised to her.
I talked to crackhead last night, over email, so it wasn't full voice or anything, but it felt good to hear that she was wondering what I had been up to, if i was alive and having fun all that good stuff.
Can I tell you how terrified of kareoke I am tomorrow night. Of all the people that will be there, or might be there. Last time I put on a show to show one evil person that they couldn't get to me. Hell I sang Wham! and I think that is when it all started to happen. That someone got lonely and started to see me as an option, thanks to a friend standing right next to them. I am noone option right now, expect maybe one, but they really don't want this option. Oh well. I'm going to pack my car, eat food, and get ready to go back to O-town
Man. I was 23. Just had broken up with Pam because Jeff found out about us. I decided to run away on a cross-country trip so I could get over Pam. Pam found out that evening that her brother was in a car accident & a coma, she called me later that evening to talk to me about it briefly. it's crazy how my life has changed.