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well, i havent updated in a few days. nothing exciting has gone on anyways. everything has been horrible. absolutely horrible. ugh. im thinking about going to my dads house for christmas vacation just to get away from everybody. only problem is that my stepsister is there... grrr. so instead, chelsea invited me to her house for vaca. ill probably stay there. life sucks, and i hate people. i love how nobody cares whether or not i stay friends with them or not. no one cares about my feelings or if they ever talk to me again. that makes me feel wonderful. schools been going bad lately. i havent had time to do all the things i need to do so im getting stressed. and tonight and friday night i have to work from 4 to like 11:30 at night. im so pissed. theres no way im gonna get my hw done or any sleep. im gonne be so dead tomorrow. i hate school. i have this outline to do for english that i have no info or ink for. grrrrr school sucks. i hate it. and like, i have no friends right now except for maybe 2 or 3. its really bad. and our school ring order forms are due tomorrow, and i picked out the one i want and everything, but my mom might not let me get it cuz its $315.00 but its soo beautiful. i absolutely love it. so maybe i can convince her to let me get it. i hope so. and im getting braces in january, finally. maybe now i wont have to worry about smiling. i hate my smile. ick. and school picture retakes are next tuesday, so i can get my nasty pics redone and get some not-so-nasty school pictures. lets hope. ugh, so yeah my life has been pretty rough for me, and it seems to be getting worse. ryan wants absolutely nothing to do with me anymore, he says that theres no chance of us getting back together, and he was yelling at me and i was balling my eyes out in front of firestone where i was getting my car inspected. it was quite embarassing. that kid hurts me so much, and he doesnt even seem to care. i wish he knew, but he'll never know cuz he wont give me the time of day to listen to me. but w/e. i so hate guys right now. and girls for that mattter. i hate everyone. and they hate me, so i guess it doesnt really matter much anyways. but w/e. i wish i didnt hvae to deal with any of this anymore. ugh. i hope life gets better soon. i dont see my gray skies clearing up anytime soon but im trying, TRYING to be optimistic. it aint workin though. oh well, nothings ever gonna change.