can't sleep
another restless night for me, I have way too much on my mind...I'm wicked nervous about random stuff and lately my stomach has been killing me but I don't want to complain about not feeling well. Jared, has stomach problems and I feel so bad that he always feels crappy. I teased him yesterday and said he reminded me of my sister never feeling well, but I was only kidding, I hope I didn't offend him. I love him, that's the bottom line, but I am constantly worried he doesn't return the affection even though I know he loves me. I am so confusing to understand. Last night I called him a bunch of times because I had this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach something bad was going to happen. I've had it before and it ended up being true, but he never picked up. His away message said he was naping, so he probably slept through the calls. But now I look obsessive, when in reality I call a bunch of times to either get his attention if his phone is on manner mode, or make sure he's ok. Having 2 friends die, really puts a damnper on life when you're consumed by the fact that it could happen again. I have chemistry and lab today both of which I really enjoy btu never have the attention span to pay attention in. I miss Jared, my mind is usually on that, I wish I could see him more. I have a job interview on Friday, nervous about that as well. why can't life be easy...well I better get ready I've been up since 7:45am and I still havent done my hair or put make-up on.
I'll write more later!
I'll write more later!