again...it's been a while
since I've last updated, it seems as if I write, wait a few months and write again! anyways it's summer and I am still at school and seeing I have a lot on my mind it wouldn't be such a bad idea to express some of it writing.
Jared and I are doing well in our relationship, especially when we aren't fighting which we are doing more and more lately and most of it is my doing. If I am stressed or worried I just seem to take it out of him, I know this is not the way of going about things but even when I know I am doing it I jsut wont shut my damn mouth. As for our fights, they usually stem from the same argument over and over again. The one thing that bothers me most is when he say's he's going to call in a few mins, 2-4hrs can go by before he even calls back and usually I'm calling him to see where he went. Or he'll call me and then have nothing to say and we spend most of the time in silence or I am rambling on and on and I'm sure he isn't even listening. I am a talker and usually have enough to say for the both of us, but it would be nice if every once and a while he'd surprise me with a conversation or even a date idea. We aren't the most romantic of all couples which is ok also, but it would be nice if he'd catch me off guard with a kiss or a flower of some kind. Something small to let me know he cares. I mean I know he does he always says "I love you" at just the right moments usually and treats me like a princess. For our 6th month I got 2 beautiful peices of jewelry however, the bracelet broke the second night I wore it and a diamond fell out of the earring 2 weeks later. Needless to say, they both are going back to Beldens to get fixed. I just wish sometimes he could see how it's the little things that mean the most. That when we are in a disagreement it is best to talk about it then to give me the silent treatment because nothing is going to get resolved any other way. The bottom line is that I love him. I love the way he looks at me when he thinks I am crazy! or the way he holds me in his arms when I'm crying. I love that he never moves his arm when I fall asleep and in the process make his arm go numb. I love that I can be myself with him no matter what. And I love the idea that he loves me. As for the few little things that bother me, I guess I love all those little faults too because underlying these are the reasons why I love him. There have been times when I've thought about telling him we should just be friends but within minutes of the thought crossing my mind I can't picture my life without him. I hate it when we are apart and I have never been this happy in a while. I just don't want to screw up this relationship like I've done in the past the only other one that really meant something to me was Pete and I never want to feel so alone as I did that summer.
As for summer school, I still can't beleive I am stuck taking classes after the hell semester I went through Jr. year although all the work paid off with a 3.912 GPA for the semester and 3.598 overall!!! 1 more semester and 2 summer classes to keep the cum laude status!!! I jsut can't wait to graduate from Keene! I hate that place!
I got to see Jen last night, that was a HUGE treat!! her new car is fabulous and it was just good to see her. We went to dinner and had a beer and then had a movie and margarita night at her place. Well I had a half of margarita because I forgot how much I can't stomach Tequila. Got sick on it last year. When I came home I called Jared, well again I called him a little after 9 but the boy had fallen asleep I thought he might have woken up, hahaha yeah right. I did get a chance to talk to Pete, it's always nice to chat with him for a few mins. I love it when he and I can have conversations. The one thing I miss most about when we dated he talked not as much as me but kept a conversation flowing. He really is a great guy and will make a girl so happy someday.
Anyway, I've babbled alot in this entry. I am waiting for jared to get out of work so he can come get me and we can go to a movie. he ahd to work late, I know he has no control over it, but again I got aggravated!!! there is seriously something wrong with me. I only get to seem him once a weekend and I like to spend as much time with him as I can and by the time he get's here and drives me up to school, there wont be a lot of time. Well, I'll write more later! hahaha perhaps in an hour as I still wait anxiously!!!
Leave the Love
Jared and I are doing well in our relationship, especially when we aren't fighting which we are doing more and more lately and most of it is my doing. If I am stressed or worried I just seem to take it out of him, I know this is not the way of going about things but even when I know I am doing it I jsut wont shut my damn mouth. As for our fights, they usually stem from the same argument over and over again. The one thing that bothers me most is when he say's he's going to call in a few mins, 2-4hrs can go by before he even calls back and usually I'm calling him to see where he went. Or he'll call me and then have nothing to say and we spend most of the time in silence or I am rambling on and on and I'm sure he isn't even listening. I am a talker and usually have enough to say for the both of us, but it would be nice if every once and a while he'd surprise me with a conversation or even a date idea. We aren't the most romantic of all couples which is ok also, but it would be nice if he'd catch me off guard with a kiss or a flower of some kind. Something small to let me know he cares. I mean I know he does he always says "I love you" at just the right moments usually and treats me like a princess. For our 6th month I got 2 beautiful peices of jewelry however, the bracelet broke the second night I wore it and a diamond fell out of the earring 2 weeks later. Needless to say, they both are going back to Beldens to get fixed. I just wish sometimes he could see how it's the little things that mean the most. That when we are in a disagreement it is best to talk about it then to give me the silent treatment because nothing is going to get resolved any other way. The bottom line is that I love him. I love the way he looks at me when he thinks I am crazy! or the way he holds me in his arms when I'm crying. I love that he never moves his arm when I fall asleep and in the process make his arm go numb. I love that I can be myself with him no matter what. And I love the idea that he loves me. As for the few little things that bother me, I guess I love all those little faults too because underlying these are the reasons why I love him. There have been times when I've thought about telling him we should just be friends but within minutes of the thought crossing my mind I can't picture my life without him. I hate it when we are apart and I have never been this happy in a while. I just don't want to screw up this relationship like I've done in the past the only other one that really meant something to me was Pete and I never want to feel so alone as I did that summer.
As for summer school, I still can't beleive I am stuck taking classes after the hell semester I went through Jr. year although all the work paid off with a 3.912 GPA for the semester and 3.598 overall!!! 1 more semester and 2 summer classes to keep the cum laude status!!! I jsut can't wait to graduate from Keene! I hate that place!
I got to see Jen last night, that was a HUGE treat!! her new car is fabulous and it was just good to see her. We went to dinner and had a beer and then had a movie and margarita night at her place. Well I had a half of margarita because I forgot how much I can't stomach Tequila. Got sick on it last year. When I came home I called Jared, well again I called him a little after 9 but the boy had fallen asleep I thought he might have woken up, hahaha yeah right. I did get a chance to talk to Pete, it's always nice to chat with him for a few mins. I love it when he and I can have conversations. The one thing I miss most about when we dated he talked not as much as me but kept a conversation flowing. He really is a great guy and will make a girl so happy someday.
Anyway, I've babbled alot in this entry. I am waiting for jared to get out of work so he can come get me and we can go to a movie. he ahd to work late, I know he has no control over it, but again I got aggravated!!! there is seriously something wrong with me. I only get to seem him once a weekend and I like to spend as much time with him as I can and by the time he get's here and drives me up to school, there wont be a lot of time. Well, I'll write more later! hahaha perhaps in an hour as I still wait anxiously!!!
Leave the Love