Oct 28, 2005 00:55
So what have I gained in this hour?
60 minutes of contemplation
and introspection.
Tens of dozens of hundreds of questions I suppose,
were boiled down--
compressed one might say--into two.
1)If I want so badly to be with her, why am I not?
2)If I think I need so strongly for her to be happy, what can I do?
There's something to be said for conciseness, right? So,
there you go.
But, O! I will not rush into this,
will not approach it with the heavy-handed tactics I have used in the past.
"Not this time like that!"--the battle cry of my generation. Generation Y.
Generation Why-Oh Why-Me.
So, not right away? Not as I see an opportunity?
Certainly not: for these things must be handled with the utmost tenderness.
This is a delicate situation. Gracefulness is required hereon out.
oh...Now every shadow is hiding my attacker my nemesis, lying in wait.
Waiting for the moment to pounce.
1)If I want so badly to be with her, why am I not?
2)If I think I need so strongly for her to be happy, what can I do?
O my life for a moment of clarity.
Falling is something I'm through with. Done. Sick of.
Curtains, taxes, stars, in and out of love.
No more. And that's what I said last year.
O my life for a moment of utmost understanding when I will know how to act.