ooooh weee
so yeah, im here once again, freeing cold, my fingers are numb! but anyways...oh man, um yesterday i went to lunch, then went home, trimmed up my hair, then watched fight club. i love that movie man!!! wow, i wasnt in the best of moods yesterday, and i kinda feel bad cause i was a little bitchy, but i jst laid down on the coch in the living room, listened to some pixies, and cried. it felt sooooooo good to cry. i havent cried since i left home. i was begining to worry. the old me wold of never of done thhis to the people who love me, but the new me, is so cold inside, its like i feel no remorse for what i did, or the things that i am doing. its so cray that now that i have done this, i now know who my tre friends are. those are the people that are worried about me, and the people who are willing and ready to do anything for me. the people who say, if yo ever need a place to crash, ask me, and theres no problem, or like tori, sending me food, making sre im ok. its kind of sad, bt i only have a few friends that are willing to do that type of thing for me. all the other people dont even matter anymore. oh man, i am pretty scared that i might be starting to like dustin a little too much. but i cant help it, he makes me happy, gets my mind off of all of the shit that has gone down over the past week and a half. when im with him, i am comfortable, and nothing else matters. i just hope that it lasts. his best friend says that he gets bored really easily, and that he doesnt do do good with long term relationships...i just hope that isnt the case, or if it is, that he changes with me. she says that it is just hard for him to settle down, because he is sch a big flirt and stuff, but we will see...alright, i think im done, until next time, signing off is the great bambino...