[Locked to Robin]
I owe you so many explanations, I can't even think of where to start, but I gotta start sometime, otherwise you'll never know and you deserve to know. I don't recall ever loving anyone as much as I loved you... 'sides Marty, of course. It was all so sudden and it didn't last nearly long enough. Kinda like a fairy tale- only one that doesn't have a happy ending. The princess doesn't get rescued from her tower in real life, Robin, because if the prince tries, there'll be more hell to pay than if the princess had just lain down her life in protest of anyone else getting hurt. That's what it comes down to. I don't want to have to live and watch another person I love die.
I never told you what happened to my ward... Or what led me to Fall. That's what I'm here to tell you, 'cause by the time you read this, I'll probably already be long gone. There was a demon, Robin. A very powerful demon who I was naive and foolish enough to believe and he lured me in and he took everything from me. Marty, my family.... Anything I touched, he claimed as his own and made me watch as he destroyed it... And when I finally tried to take myself out of this world, he wouldn't let me go.
That's the thing, Robin- he won't let me go. Not ever. I know your boss is Romana, but if she took one look at me, she wouldn't want to help me for nothing. I came to Chicago because Luther wanted me to spy on the angels and find out things about the Rift and all that. I would've done it too if I hadn't met you and everyone and just fell in love with this place. It made him angry that I hadn't done my job and he's given me orders that I don't want to take, and this is the only way out of them.
I'm so sorry. I wish you hadn't me, because all I ever do is bring hurt and pain to people I encounter. I'm happy to have known and loved you though, because being with you made things so much happier for me... For just a little while.
I love you. And I'm sorry. For everything.