I'm back from the dead
So it's been forever since I've posted because for the longest time it wasn't letting me because I accidently made a post back in April but the date on it said it was August for some reason so when I would try to make an entry it would say I wasn't allowed to write an entry in the past...I don't know if that makes sense or not. But also, I really haven't felt like writing in here.
Today is an exception however because I am so bored and lonely and sad. I'm sick of everyone being so flaky. Saying they want to hang out, then making some excuse (whether it's true or not). It makes me feel sad and unwanted. I don't do well with down time. Yes, at times it's nice and needed but too much of it can be poison to the body. Not having anything to do makes me lazy and I eat more. It also just makes me plain sad and I feel sorry for myself. It does't help the fact that my whole family is out of town. So not only do my friends not want to hang out but my house is empty and the only noise I have is the TV which gets really old. I really feel like crying right now and I can't wait to move to California. Oh yah, for all of you who didn't know, I am moving to LA in July. Only 24 days and I won't have to be in this stupid town anymore. I can't wait to get down there and start school and be really busy with something that interests me. I want to feel productive, like I'm working towards something that is going to benefit my future. I honestly feel like I live each day here just trying to pass time and that is not a way to live life. But honestly what can you do when there's literally NOTHING to do and NO ONE to hang out with?
At the same time being as happy as I am that I am moving, I can't believe it's only in 24 days. The time is going by so quickly. It's already been almost 2 weeks since I finished school. Ironically I did better in school this quarter than I ever have in my whole college career. I thought I was going to fail everything because I had very little motivation because this is my last quarter at community college. I don't know how it happened. I actually could have easily gotten a 4.0 but I kinda slacked in directing and didn't see any plays. Still I managed to pull off a 3.5 altogether which may not be good for some people, but for me, trust me that's really good.
Ughh I just want this day to be over with. Who knows if tomorrow will be any better but at least my family will be home.
Today is an exception however because I am so bored and lonely and sad. I'm sick of everyone being so flaky. Saying they want to hang out, then making some excuse (whether it's true or not). It makes me feel sad and unwanted. I don't do well with down time. Yes, at times it's nice and needed but too much of it can be poison to the body. Not having anything to do makes me lazy and I eat more. It also just makes me plain sad and I feel sorry for myself. It does't help the fact that my whole family is out of town. So not only do my friends not want to hang out but my house is empty and the only noise I have is the TV which gets really old. I really feel like crying right now and I can't wait to move to California. Oh yah, for all of you who didn't know, I am moving to LA in July. Only 24 days and I won't have to be in this stupid town anymore. I can't wait to get down there and start school and be really busy with something that interests me. I want to feel productive, like I'm working towards something that is going to benefit my future. I honestly feel like I live each day here just trying to pass time and that is not a way to live life. But honestly what can you do when there's literally NOTHING to do and NO ONE to hang out with?
At the same time being as happy as I am that I am moving, I can't believe it's only in 24 days. The time is going by so quickly. It's already been almost 2 weeks since I finished school. Ironically I did better in school this quarter than I ever have in my whole college career. I thought I was going to fail everything because I had very little motivation because this is my last quarter at community college. I don't know how it happened. I actually could have easily gotten a 4.0 but I kinda slacked in directing and didn't see any plays. Still I managed to pull off a 3.5 altogether which may not be good for some people, but for me, trust me that's really good.
Ughh I just want this day to be over with. Who knows if tomorrow will be any better but at least my family will be home.