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so things have been all over the place lately, like always.
i went to orientation.
i survived, but it wasn't much fun.
i met some cool people, but didn't exchange information with anyone.
but everyone has facebook and wants me to get it.
so i suppose i'll do that at some point.
i met one girl from maine who was really cool and liked all the same music as me.
and another from california that made me laugh really hard.
overall orientation wasn't bad.
but i was tired and bored the whole time.
and my classes are going to kick my ass next year.
i’m taking all hard classes.
all i wanted was a photo class, but my advisor said not now.
which sucks, because i really wanted it.
anyways, i made it through orientation.
it scared the shit out of me, but i made it.
i came home and went to target with lin.
which was nice because i love lin.
and it was nice to know she's nervous about anytown too.
i am so nervous.
which sucks because i leave tonight.
i just don't feel ready in so many ways.
i’m tired, and going in tired is never good.
i feel like i’m going to cry, which is bound to happen at anytown anyways.
however i am not supposed to be the one crying.
and i haven't even thought about my discussion group or anything.
and i’m nervous about the delegates, even though there are only 21.
bahh.
i hope tonight will make things better.
tonight lin and i are having a sleepover with two middle-aged men.
yeeesssss.
and i love them both.
we're wicked excited.
then anytown, which i suppose i will be excited for after tonight.
yesterday toby came for the day.
it started out awful.
i was upset about stuff.
then we found out about meg and jamie.
and becky and marc.
and i just freaked out.
i wanted to be able to be there for meg so badly.
i just wanted to hug her and let her cry.
i just wanted to make sure she was ok.
but i didn’t have any way of doing that.
so i cried for a long time about a lot of different stuff.
it just all came out.
i feel bad that i always cry to toby.
he says it's ok and he wants me to be able to talk to him.
but i still feel bad.
but after i cried and everything things got better.
we went exploring in an old barn and the mill in uxbridge.
we took a lot of cool pictures, but they don't do the places justice.
they were gorgeous.
i love things like that.
so that was fun and all.
but now i won't see him, or probably talk to him, for a week.
which sucks a lot.
i am probably going to be so busy i won't have much time to think about it.
however i am going to miss him.
a lot.
hell, i already do just thinking about it.
but i think i might go down the cape for the 4th of july.
so that would be good, and we'd get to spend some good time together.
alright i still have some stuff to get together before lin comes.
wish me luck for this week.
i hope everything goes smoothly.
i went to orientation.
i survived, but it wasn't much fun.
i met some cool people, but didn't exchange information with anyone.
but everyone has facebook and wants me to get it.
so i suppose i'll do that at some point.
i met one girl from maine who was really cool and liked all the same music as me.
and another from california that made me laugh really hard.
overall orientation wasn't bad.
but i was tired and bored the whole time.
and my classes are going to kick my ass next year.
i’m taking all hard classes.
all i wanted was a photo class, but my advisor said not now.
which sucks, because i really wanted it.
anyways, i made it through orientation.
it scared the shit out of me, but i made it.
i came home and went to target with lin.
which was nice because i love lin.
and it was nice to know she's nervous about anytown too.
i am so nervous.
which sucks because i leave tonight.
i just don't feel ready in so many ways.
i’m tired, and going in tired is never good.
i feel like i’m going to cry, which is bound to happen at anytown anyways.
however i am not supposed to be the one crying.
and i haven't even thought about my discussion group or anything.
and i’m nervous about the delegates, even though there are only 21.
bahh.
i hope tonight will make things better.
tonight lin and i are having a sleepover with two middle-aged men.
yeeesssss.
and i love them both.
we're wicked excited.
then anytown, which i suppose i will be excited for after tonight.
yesterday toby came for the day.
it started out awful.
i was upset about stuff.
then we found out about meg and jamie.
and becky and marc.
and i just freaked out.
i wanted to be able to be there for meg so badly.
i just wanted to hug her and let her cry.
i just wanted to make sure she was ok.
but i didn’t have any way of doing that.
so i cried for a long time about a lot of different stuff.
it just all came out.
i feel bad that i always cry to toby.
he says it's ok and he wants me to be able to talk to him.
but i still feel bad.
but after i cried and everything things got better.
we went exploring in an old barn and the mill in uxbridge.
we took a lot of cool pictures, but they don't do the places justice.
they were gorgeous.
i love things like that.
so that was fun and all.
but now i won't see him, or probably talk to him, for a week.
which sucks a lot.
i am probably going to be so busy i won't have much time to think about it.
however i am going to miss him.
a lot.
hell, i already do just thinking about it.
but i think i might go down the cape for the 4th of july.
so that would be good, and we'd get to spend some good time together.
alright i still have some stuff to get together before lin comes.
wish me luck for this week.
i hope everything goes smoothly.